Be it angst or be it insanity...

[spyre]

I don’t even know what to do with myself anymore. I just want to fall asleep beneath the covers, extend my roots, and plant myself there. Everything that has been keeping me content and somewhat distracted from myself is either dissipating or being held out of reach. My juxtaposed list of faults is lengthening

Comments

[isafantasy]

I am sorry that you are feeling so bad :-( I have this portrait you made of me on my wall but I am not close to you, not really... but I know what pain is and I hope you will somehow feel better soon.

[spyre]

How are you, lovely Isabelle? Heh, just having someone care enough to respond makes me feel better. Thank you :) And by the way, would you allow me to do another portrait of you?

[isafantasy]

Lately my emotions are rather unstable, probably because I am searching for a job and so far I found none :-/ Yes, of course you can do another portrait of me :-) It would be an honor. Feel free to use me ;-)

[ohimdead]

*kiss n hugs*
I am soo sorry you feel like this. I talked to you earlier in the night but didn't realize you updated your journal. I know what its like and I feel the same way..

[spyre]

Yeah, its the same old song and dance and its tiring. I miss you...

[spyre]

I have to say, dispite the fact that we rarely see each other, you always come through for me in some way- whether it be with some encouraging words/commentary or, even though it's been a while, a hug or a glipse into your sketch book. I always wince when i read comforting responses after i vent on livejournal, because i feel as though my angsty posts demand sympathy from whoever reads them. It's not intensional- i just hate feeling handicapped in anyway, and i've been feeling helpless an awful lot, as of late. Not to mention, my inspiration artistically has been running low, and i've always thought that without my art, i wouldn't have a reason to exist. (*Insert 'I feel Sick' references here*) So it's been scaring me a bit... But I've found a book full of beautiful pin up paintings by Vargas... (Yay for all things vintage) So i'm feeling a twinge of creativity. Hah, even the littlest little bit excites me

[spyre]

You know, you always come through for me, despite the fact that we rarely see each other- whether it be with encouraging words/commentary or, even though it's been a while, a hug or a glimpse into your sketchbook. I wince when i see responses from people concerning posts made when i need to vent, i feel as though i'm demanding sympathy from others. Wah wah, pity me. It's unintensional- i just hate feeling handicapped, helpless. I'll survive, the way i always do, but dealing with it all is becoming a more difficult battle, or i'm becoming weaker.
I was cleaning up my friends list earlier and realized that you weren't on there- Thought i added you a while ago. Not making excuses, i was wondering why i wasn't seeing any updates from you on my friends page. (You're added now)
Anyways, thank you... You ever over at Matt and Clair's? I've been over there so often that i practically live there...

[spyre]

Gwar! Fuckin livejournal- thought it didn't post that first response, kee-rist.

[anonymous]

awww, i love you tons baby! I can NOT wait to see you... i wish i was in ann arbor tomorrow, but yeah... talk to you later sexy!

~adrienne

I'm still around for ya'

[os1248]

I know it might not seem like it fromt he lack of contact recently, but i AM here for you. Don't think for a second that i'm not. I know we haven't been keeping in contact too well, but it can change if you'd like to give it a shot. You're an all around good person and just stressed out. I'm takin' you mini-golfin' or something soon. a few friends and i are planning to go sometime soon. why don't you join in? it'll be fun. I'd like to see you have some fun and enjoy yourself. drop a line or give me a call. i'd like to keep in contact this time. -hoping for the best of our friendship, Os-

Re: I'm still around for ya'

[spyre]

How come you always drp by when i'm not around or when I'm working? Nyar to you and your bad timing ;P Of course i'd love to keep and touch and hang out more. Gimmie a buzz or something soon!