You know when you found it,there's something i've learned,'cause you feel it when they take it away

[spyre]

Clair is gone. As is my closest girl friend from highschool. 2005 has just begun and i can't wait for it to end.

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[r0b1n]

we framed her picture yesterday..it hangs over us on the bookshelf.
please call me. we could create a memorial piece together for her?
i ♥ you.

[spyre]

I'll definately call you... I'm rounding up pictures of her m'self for an art project... yah, we should collaborate on something for her. Excellent idea.

[spider_punk]

i'm sorry babe. but i'm with you. i can't handle anything else bad this year. did you hear errl lost another friend too?

[spyre]

Thanks, hun... I'm ready to go all reclusive or get crazy protective of everyone that i love. Yah, i read that errl lost a buddy of his...
I'll be at Matt's on Friday... You're coming out to get stupid drunk with us, yah?

[spider_punk]

drunk is an understatement at this point. So far I'm doing okay at keeping myself delusional from reality. Tomorrow will be another hard day (class with Kelly) but I'll make it through and force myself to be numb again. I dunno, I guess that I never learned to deal with things because I was always trying to help other people. I haven't really dealt with any of this yet. I was just depressed. All I know is that I need a drink, right now especially and I cna't have one because I'm on duty. It's bullshit, lol.

[spyre]

I think we all need Friday. I was just having a conversation with someone about the being strong for other people but being numb because of it thing. I keep trying to tell myself that its okay to be weak once in a while... but it doesn't really get through- i think you know what i mean. Depression is a bitch and i'm tired of it. So let's carouse down the streets in our underoos fall down a few flights of stairs, eh?