anytime i feel the slightest hurt from a guy, i think about my past and those boys i may have caused some similar pain and i think "i hope you were avenged tonight". somehow... i gain some sick comfort from this simple belief or thought that they are.

you may be joking... but im getting nerv....ous.....

i would say it hurts like hell... but how would i really know... and heres hoping i never do. and lets just pretend that i have any rationality left at 5 am and while im at dont take me seriously for the next three days while i wont be sleeping much cause i have 3 tests and 2 papers due on thursday. shoot me now? yes please :) actually no... im so ( Read more... )

theres a lot of things in my life that are missing ( Read more... )

oh... how ive been living through bands/albums as of late... garden state, yellowcard, david crowder, joc, jew, chemical romance, death cab and i was hankering for some hello good byes... and my good friends provide... no way... how often does that happen? anywho... i love it, but tonight... tho im listening to "dear jamie" and other ingenius tunes ( Read more... )

garden state. so good. real, honest, imperfect, beautiful. soundtrack, amazing, captivating almost tantalizing. if you know me, then you know the next time i see garden state i may hate the movie, but i will still love the soundtrack. for this reason, i think i may never watch garden state again. i want it to remain unblemished in its own form in ( Read more... )

classes. good. super good. abnormal was engaging, sex was interesting and urban was bearable. meeting. good. super good. its a lovely thing to share ministry with such lovely women. the following. good. gurreat... a night full of awesome conversation and white board notes all over the place. only regrets... i just had a full can of soda and two ( Read more... )

you know life is moving too fast when you eat your fruit snacks or animal cookies without even looking at which character or species it is. what a sad day...

my goal is to be in bed by 2, so i gotta make this quick. tonight is my first night back at home aka vanguard university, the big VU. ah.... how good it feels to come home to a lonely dorm room with just me, my thoughts and the BIG GUY. i love it. i have no idea how JC did the whole 12 disciple thing. no alone time would kill me. i love hanging out ( Read more... )

for the many i have contacted post original departure time... i have encountered a few set backs and will leave in less than four hours in which i plan spending some on sleep, the others on writng a bloody paper oooo and a shower. i dont feel good. prayers appreciated. im REALLY REALLY looking fwd to this weekend.