Its funny, that this should seem such a miraculous thing because, I used to cry all the time. But I haven't really cried in a long time. Its funny I haven't felt much of anything in a long time. I've just had this horrible floating feeling, and nothing every slows down enough for me to touch the bottom of the river and walk to the bottom of the ( Read more... )

I hate this job. I am so sick of people treating like, I'm blind or stupid, or both ( Read more... )

I'm so tired. But I have this horrible feeling at the end of this day, like I did something wrong. I can't think of any fowl thing I've done today. I hate this feeling regret and guilt mixed together, and then there's confusion because you don't know what you feel guilty about ( Read more... )

I've always been one who feels things deeply, so being numb is an uncomfortable process for me. I just can't help but think that feeling something would be better than feeling nothing. Like in Cat on a Hot Tin Roof, when Big Daddy won't take the morphine because when you feel pain, at least you know you're alive. I'm not saying I want things to be ( Read more... )

All hail my aunt Molly, who is the best giver of gifts that any niece could ask for. She not only got the Jason Mraz CD (thus the interesting subject line, thank you Mr. Mraz for spicing up my LJ), but also all three Gidget movies on DVD! How three small metallic discs contian such bliss? But who am I to question why? And my wonderful Nana got me ( Read more... )

But here it is in all it's glory:

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Anyhoo, should really be working on a paper now so i guess I'll be toddling along.

P.S. I like how calm that little bouncing head looks.

There was a whole big explination, but I just don't even want to anymore!

You will forget the love he gave ( Read more... )

Its been one of those days. I can't think of what I want to do for my lesson plans, which is a problem considering that my whole entire career hinges on whether or not I am able to write and execute lesson plans ( Read more... )

Talked with Melanie today about letting myself go. I felt really dumb afterwards.

Cause you can't plan the ends and not plan the means.