looks like your journal was deleted. So sad.

Work, and sleep. Where did my social life go? I miss those good times with friends. CAT WHERE ARE YOU!

I just got home. I went to visit Cat at work and fix my car. She told me about a Fuel System cleaning so I went there ( Read more... )

Well the past few days I have been staying outside, around the house of course, but outside until 2-2:30 am each morning with Eric ( Read more... )

Me and Josh, rollercoaster. We've finally decided that we should start at friendship and then go from there. Its made me feel a lot more comfortable around him. I dont' know, theres some other things thats been compromising me and him ( Read more... )

Its like I'll be in the best mood and then I'll talk to Josh and just be in this complete bitch mood where no matter what he does, its pissing me off ( Read more... )

Friday. I talked to Ben and decided that I shouldn't be upset over what happened. Why? I did tell the truth and the truth hurts. It was late at night and I was really sensitive. I told him and he still told me that it hurt. I do think it upset him that I didn't seem to care much the next so he tried to twist the knife to get a reaction but didn't. ( Read more... )

I had a friendship that used to be depressing. It got better but I could have not put a more heinous thing in my journal. I gave someone a cruel nickname and feel absolutely horrible. I don't think theres any way to really make up for it and I'm really scared that no matter how long has passed, in the back of his mind he will always remember this ( Read more... )

Tuesday it took forever to Josh to meet me. Me and Lee went to the mall for hours. I got to try on some really pretty dresses and we talked a lot. I held his hand when I was cold but it was a fun day ( Read more... )

My time is running short. I'm still searching. Searching for someone who can read know, who knows me through my masks and lies, and just someone who won't let me run, instead they'll hold me tight in their arms and tell me it will be okay ( Read more... )