It's kind of funny really, I seem to focus on small pains to avoid big issues, just like Michelle. I don't know though... I see the pains and wonder, why am I complaining? Ironically some things I feel pain for are things I consider larger than those of the people I read about, and still I doubt myself. What is the point of feeling hurt? I will ( Read more... )

I rode Prince ofr the first time since his infection today. I only rode bareback cause the saddle would have hit his sore. I love my horsey and I'm thrilled by his health. He was really sweet and I feel like a lot of my stress has melted since seeing him. Horses are therapuetic, I swear it! If you don't have one, you should.. unless you don't like ( Read more... )

If Sorrow is Beautiful, She Exemplifies Beauty ( Read more... )

Just got back from my vacation in Lubbock, Texas. The thing is, Lubbock doesn't really have much to do. The reason I went out there was one of my friends wanted me to visit him. I figured I would. It was a six hour drive and Micha went with me. She's my hero. Without her along I would have been outnumbered by two college guys, and they were bad ( Read more... )

I forget whose tombstone reads that line, but he was a wonderful writer. Maybe I'm just proving his point. SOmetimes I wonder though, how much of life is spent in emotions that are water-based? A house built on solid foundation does not shake or shudder near so much as one built on clay. Imagine what a house built on liquid foundation would do ( ( Read more... )

Well, life just keeps getting more and more complicated. Prince is injured. It makes life more difficult. At least MOther and I made up. I am free to go home at any time. It's Halloween. Happy Halloween to those of you having a good one. The injury Prince sustained most likely started out as a small insect bite, but it got infected. I guess he got ( Read more... )

Micha just got a new laptop. It's worth two thousand dollars. I'm really happy for her; she's been wanting this for a long time ( Read more... )

For the first time in my whole life I realize how little I must mean to my mother. We disagreed. I told her that because we don't get along I thought maybe I should move out and she turned everything into a personal issue, into something bigger than it really is. She turned everything into something about Michelle. Fuck her; (her being Mom). I've ( Read more... )

A Plea To Time ( Read more... )

Today was much better, mostly due to my horse. I went bareback riding today; aside from the fact that the seams in my pants rubbed me raw, it was a wonderful day. Prince was amazingly responsive; he did everything I asked and eventually I was feeling comfortable enough to go over jumps bareback. I didn't fall off, he didn't buck, and I got a taste ( Read more... )