Sometimes it is just so hard to define my want for something, and how i feel when i don't seem able to get it ( Read more... )

Feeling really really lost.
Wish i could define my problem. and find the solution.

fear is a crippling thing. it sits in your mind and eats at your heart. and it makes you imagine scenarios worse than expected, worse than what could really happen. it steals the happiness from your smile and it makes you feel as if you are the only one a tragedy has fallen on though surely there are others in the same situation ( Read more... )

how does love change over three years ( Read more... )

losing someone you love is never easy.
i lost my grandmom yesterday------and i'm still i guess in a state of numbness.
yes tears have flown but------it will take time to set in.

The times they are a changing ( Read more... )

 my best friend is having a baby
we've been friends since we were in the eigth
it seems like yesterday we were sitting in the last bench and eating chocolates on my birthday
it's makes me feel very happy and excited
and very grown up-------all at the same time

 if i had grand dreams of a first job it was definately not teaching ( Read more... )

 something new starts tomm
truth be told to leave the decadence of sitting at home---------------is difficult
even though there were days which were horrible
even though i was sure i'd end up in the asylum
but i'm glad for this job
for the freedom it will give me
and for the experiance of teaching someone 
i hope i do well

 i'm tired
don't know why
can't say why
just---------------------------------------------------------