So I went into this week thinking alright I'm gonna have a tough week at work, so I'll focus on making that into the best work week. Go in monday and work my ass off, get a lot accomplished. But per usual as I focus on one thing everything else starts to drift away. Monday I get a phone call from the doctor I saw last week, and my bilirubins ( Read more... )

I've forgotten what Love feels like. Completely and totally its gone. The truth is, I don't think I care anymore. What does that make me? Why is the only place I truly feel happy anymore, work? Why am I so utterly alone?

A new fire lit and affirmed, a new path to walk, a new possability to life. Prayer now a more important tool to discern the truth of it.

Lord keep this fire lit, this path bright, and teach me the true ways of a man. AmenProverbs 12 (NIV ( Read more... )

This is from Chuck Missler. Funny that I should be questioning my intentions, to have this come across my email ( Read more... )

So what now? As I read my friends page, I come to the stark conclusion that everyone seems to have something to do. Why don't I? My Job is stimulating for exactly 8 hrs out of a day, that's only 33.33%. So I am finally graduated, finally escaped from school. An event I never expected/wanted to come. How many times have I asked God to take it ( Read more... )

Well Its been a while since I updated, but alas, nothing has really happened. However, I will be moving out rather shortly, and in with a few people (
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Until we come to terms with war as the context of our days we will not understand life. We will misinterpret 90 percent of what is happening around us and to us. It will be very hard to believe that God' intentions twoard us are life abundant; it will be even harder not to feel that somehow we are blowing it. ... Most people get stuck at ( Read more... )

You know you did it when you were younger.

I made a mistake, crossed a line that I should not have. Let my own desperation get the better of me, let selfish desire ruin and corrupt something that was strong. And now I'll I want to do is work through it, and I can't, because the very trust I want to repair is needed to repair it.

So appears that all the girls I know consider me safe. How wonderful is that?