Hospital Wishes
Title- Hospital Wishes
Author- SSAM_SSAM
Genre- ANGST(I think), Fluff, Cliche stuff xD
Couples- YooSu, Hint of YunJae... Friendship MinSu~
Prologue // 1 // 2 // 3 // 4 // 5a // 5b // 6 // 7
Set in Junsu's POV
I knew I was going to die soon. It is my body after all.
A nurse came in and placed a tray of food on my table and patted my shoulder, "Be strong okay Hun?"
She waited for a couple of minutes and I finally responded with a small nod. The nurse left and closed the door with a small click. Slowly, I turned my head to look at the food.
My reaction time has gotten slower. Someone told me. I can't even write i my journal anymore. My hands trembled as I handled the kimchi with care as I leaded it to my mouth.
My lips parted and I chewed dreadfully slow. Tears bit their way through the back of my eyelids.
The door clicked and I opened my eyes to see the last person I wanted to see. I quickly (or as quickly as I could) closed them with the smallest hint of hope that the man would just disappear.
"Hey Su... Ready to take your medicine?" Yunho set the small, crisp white packet that held the foul medicine. Yunho hyung just needs to throw that stuff out the window, it isn't even working.
He poured the powder into the water and stirred it with a small teaspoon. The white powder dissolved quickly into the clear liquid.
Yunho sniffed at the water and made a face. When he caught me staring he quickly changed his scowl into a smile.
"Here ya go Su." I crossed my arms and looked back out the window.
My eyes wandered their way over to the handsome volunteer helping out an elderly grandmother move from her wheelchair to the sun-warmed bench.
Yunho turned me around and held the glass up to my face. I frowned and he just pulled at my cheeks.
"Don't..... Touch.... Me." I rasped. It was getting more difficult to speak when it felt like something was clawing at my throat.
"Su. Min said for you to drink this. It's a new medicine to slow down your illness. I mean it's supposed to. Uh..." Yunho scratched his head and looked at the ceiling with confusion.
"What's the.... point?.... It's un.... Curable." I pouted and continued to watch Yoochun laugh and speak freely to the grandmother. I made eye contact and looked away. When I looked back Yoochun was back to speaking to the elder.
I sighed and saw Yunho glaring at me with his hand still extended with the glass of water/medicine.
"Don't... you have to... be with Yoonji?" My voice started coming back, but it still hurt a little. Maybe it was because I hadn't spoken for three days.
Yunho sighed impatiently and nodded, "Yeah, but she's with Jae and Yoohwan.... Yoohwan's been awfully close to her don't you think? He's all she talks about...."
"Getting... Jealous?" I smirked and slowly grasped the cold glass cup and sipped at the medicine, my face scrunched up at the failed taste of peach.
I mumbled under my breath, "Ugh... Fail..."
Yunho stopped ranting and looked at me, "Huh? You said something?" I smiled and shook my head softly.
"Anyway, that Yoohwan kid needs to back off just a little... Just enough so he doesn't do anything weird."
I smiled and gulped painfully at the bitter drink. I made a face and placed it gently on the table.
I smiled again and grabbed Yunho's hand and patted it gently.
"You.... Just need.... To relax."
Yunho smiled and nodded, his heart hurt seeing someone that was like a brother struggle with speaking.
"All right, well you get your rest and, I'll call someone to help you with your daily physical training."
"What?"
"Min said you're body needs to practice its main functions," Yunho picked up the tray and smiled at me before closing the door softly.
Slowly I stepped over to the bed and crawled under the covers. I didn't feel like 'exercising' my body.
A knock. My heart tore itself to pieces at the voice that came with it.
"Su?..." Yoochun's shadow showed up through the thin blanket.
My eyes squeezed themselves shut thinking that he'll go away.
Please go away, please please go away.
"Su, Yunho called me to help you with your therapy."
Note to self: Kill Yunho...
My eyes teared up at the pain my throat felt, "Go... away.... I don't .... want.... to do any... thing right now." Yoochun reached over and pulled the blanket from my face.
I glared at him and sat up.
"Look Su, I'm sorry. I'm sorry for everything I've said to you. I.... Just felt hurt when you said you forgot about me. I mean I confessed and everything. So..." Yoochun's face tinged with pink I felt bad for hurting him.
I thought I was helping him. I wanted him to be happy with a different guy... or girl. I looked from his face to my fingers. They twitched achingly to hold Chun's hand.
"I heard about you're condition. Why did you lie?"
Disappointment filled my face and he noticed. He held my pinky and I let him. Feeling the same warmth from before all this mess.
Butterflies tickled my stomach and I smiled at his pinky pulling at mine. I pulled my hand away and let my legs off the edge of the bed.
He looked at me and smiled when he read my expression, 'Well, what are you waiting for? I need to exercise'
'So, you forgive me?" I leaned over and pecked his cheek, but took a while to pull back because of my body. He smiled and helped me up and hugged me.
"Chunnie,... need air." He smiled and kissed my forehead.
"Sorry, just too happy...."
My lips were pulled into a permanent grin and after our two hours of therapy he left to his own room.
Chunnie was given his own room to share with Yoohwan and I was fine with it. He just two rooms down anyway.
He tucked me in and I pouted for a goodnight kiss. He smiled and leaned for a small kiss on the cheek.
Soon my mind drifted to the dreamworld.
DREAM
"Hyung! Play with me!" A 14 year old Junsu jumped on his brother.
"Junsu, just leave me alone.... I don't want my friends to to see you... They're gonna make fun of me for having a retard as a brother."
Junsu just looked at his brother with a confused face.
"Hyung? What do you mean? C'mon hyung! I wanna play with my toys! Let's play!"
Junho pushed Junsu away and glared, "I would play with you if you weren't a retard!" He ran and joined his friends that pointed and laughed at Junsu who was crying and rubbing at his comma-shaped eyes.
He ran into his house and found his parents in the living room talking over tea.
"Appa! Umma! Junho hyung won't play with me and his.... his friends laughed and called me mean names!"
Junsu's mother looked at him and stood up quickly. She ran over to hold his shoulders.
"You went outside? I thought I told you to not go outside!" She looked him over and took a glimpse at Junsu's father, who still sipped at his tea.
Junsu looked down and nodded.
"I'm sorry Umma.... I just... Wanted to play with hyung."
His father stood up and left the room leaving the two alone. They heard the door shut.
She smiled softly and held Junsu close, but her voice wavered, "Junsu, I don't want you to go outside without me."
"Why?"
She took his hand and held it against her cheek with depression filling her eyes.
"Because... I want you all to myself. You're mine and mine only... I don't want anybody to see your beautiful face."
Junsu looked at his mother's face and shrunk back with fear as he heard a faint voice.
It's because I don't want anybody to look at my son.... A defect...
I'm so ashamed....
Junsu held onto his head with his hands and his eyes darted back and forth to his mother and the door to the outside.
"Umma! My head hurts! Umma!" The world spun and Junsu blacked out.
END DREAM
"Umma..... UMMA!" I shot up from my bed and my body winced at the sudden movement I made. Beads of sweat dropped like bullets. I looked around and was greeted only by the soft moonlight through the streaked windows. My hands trembled.
I closed them together and closed my eyes, Please God... Hear my prayer.... Please don't let me die.
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Hello loves! :DD I was feeling greatly depressed while I was typing this. A t least it was an update right?..... -gets pelted with markers-
Well.... Can you feel the end coming along?.... I can't I think this is going to drag on... And I don't want to drag anything on.... :/
I'm sorry for the very quick I'm sorry/You're forgiven thing... :( I'm not good at that... and I didn't want those two apart for so long... THREE DAYS!!
School is about to start next month for me... And I am ready for it..... Not really.... But I will try to update :D
I had to go to Pennsylvania again.... Guh.... So I couldn't update sooner...
I look REALLY young for my age don't I? 17.... T^T I want to looker older!!
-sigh- But at least I look younger than my sister... :3
Please read and comment! I hope I didn't make anybody mad with this!! :DD -goes off and hides-
Author- SSAM_SSAM
Genre- ANGST(I think), Fluff, Cliche stuff xD
Couples- YooSu, Hint of YunJae... Friendship MinSu~
Prologue // 1 // 2 // 3 // 4 // 5a // 5b // 6 // 7
Set in Junsu's POV
I knew I was going to die soon. It is my body after all.
A nurse came in and placed a tray of food on my table and patted my shoulder, "Be strong okay Hun?"
She waited for a couple of minutes and I finally responded with a small nod. The nurse left and closed the door with a small click. Slowly, I turned my head to look at the food.
My reaction time has gotten slower. Someone told me. I can't even write i my journal anymore. My hands trembled as I handled the kimchi with care as I leaded it to my mouth.
My lips parted and I chewed dreadfully slow. Tears bit their way through the back of my eyelids.
The door clicked and I opened my eyes to see the last person I wanted to see. I quickly (or as quickly as I could) closed them with the smallest hint of hope that the man would just disappear.
"Hey Su... Ready to take your medicine?" Yunho set the small, crisp white packet that held the foul medicine. Yunho hyung just needs to throw that stuff out the window, it isn't even working.
He poured the powder into the water and stirred it with a small teaspoon. The white powder dissolved quickly into the clear liquid.
Yunho sniffed at the water and made a face. When he caught me staring he quickly changed his scowl into a smile.
"Here ya go Su." I crossed my arms and looked back out the window.
My eyes wandered their way over to the handsome volunteer helping out an elderly grandmother move from her wheelchair to the sun-warmed bench.
Yunho turned me around and held the glass up to my face. I frowned and he just pulled at my cheeks.
"Don't..... Touch.... Me." I rasped. It was getting more difficult to speak when it felt like something was clawing at my throat.
"Su. Min said for you to drink this. It's a new medicine to slow down your illness. I mean it's supposed to. Uh..." Yunho scratched his head and looked at the ceiling with confusion.
"What's the.... point?.... It's un.... Curable." I pouted and continued to watch Yoochun laugh and speak freely to the grandmother. I made eye contact and looked away. When I looked back Yoochun was back to speaking to the elder.
I sighed and saw Yunho glaring at me with his hand still extended with the glass of water/medicine.
"Don't... you have to... be with Yoonji?" My voice started coming back, but it still hurt a little. Maybe it was because I hadn't spoken for three days.
Yunho sighed impatiently and nodded, "Yeah, but she's with Jae and Yoohwan.... Yoohwan's been awfully close to her don't you think? He's all she talks about...."
"Getting... Jealous?" I smirked and slowly grasped the cold glass cup and sipped at the medicine, my face scrunched up at the failed taste of peach.
I mumbled under my breath, "Ugh... Fail..."
Yunho stopped ranting and looked at me, "Huh? You said something?" I smiled and shook my head softly.
"Anyway, that Yoohwan kid needs to back off just a little... Just enough so he doesn't do anything weird."
I smiled and gulped painfully at the bitter drink. I made a face and placed it gently on the table.
I smiled again and grabbed Yunho's hand and patted it gently.
"You.... Just need.... To relax."
Yunho smiled and nodded, his heart hurt seeing someone that was like a brother struggle with speaking.
"All right, well you get your rest and, I'll call someone to help you with your daily physical training."
"What?"
"Min said you're body needs to practice its main functions," Yunho picked up the tray and smiled at me before closing the door softly.
Slowly I stepped over to the bed and crawled under the covers. I didn't feel like 'exercising' my body.
A knock. My heart tore itself to pieces at the voice that came with it.
"Su?..." Yoochun's shadow showed up through the thin blanket.
My eyes squeezed themselves shut thinking that he'll go away.
Please go away, please please go away.
"Su, Yunho called me to help you with your therapy."
Note to self: Kill Yunho...
My eyes teared up at the pain my throat felt, "Go... away.... I don't .... want.... to do any... thing right now." Yoochun reached over and pulled the blanket from my face.
I glared at him and sat up.
"Look Su, I'm sorry. I'm sorry for everything I've said to you. I.... Just felt hurt when you said you forgot about me. I mean I confessed and everything. So..." Yoochun's face tinged with pink I felt bad for hurting him.
I thought I was helping him. I wanted him to be happy with a different guy... or girl. I looked from his face to my fingers. They twitched achingly to hold Chun's hand.
"I heard about you're condition. Why did you lie?"
Disappointment filled my face and he noticed. He held my pinky and I let him. Feeling the same warmth from before all this mess.
Butterflies tickled my stomach and I smiled at his pinky pulling at mine. I pulled my hand away and let my legs off the edge of the bed.
He looked at me and smiled when he read my expression, 'Well, what are you waiting for? I need to exercise'
'So, you forgive me?" I leaned over and pecked his cheek, but took a while to pull back because of my body. He smiled and helped me up and hugged me.
"Chunnie,... need air." He smiled and kissed my forehead.
"Sorry, just too happy...."
My lips were pulled into a permanent grin and after our two hours of therapy he left to his own room.
Chunnie was given his own room to share with Yoohwan and I was fine with it. He just two rooms down anyway.
He tucked me in and I pouted for a goodnight kiss. He smiled and leaned for a small kiss on the cheek.
Soon my mind drifted to the dreamworld.
DREAM
"Hyung! Play with me!" A 14 year old Junsu jumped on his brother.
"Junsu, just leave me alone.... I don't want my friends to to see you... They're gonna make fun of me for having a retard as a brother."
Junsu just looked at his brother with a confused face.
"Hyung? What do you mean? C'mon hyung! I wanna play with my toys! Let's play!"
Junho pushed Junsu away and glared, "I would play with you if you weren't a retard!" He ran and joined his friends that pointed and laughed at Junsu who was crying and rubbing at his comma-shaped eyes.
He ran into his house and found his parents in the living room talking over tea.
"Appa! Umma! Junho hyung won't play with me and his.... his friends laughed and called me mean names!"
Junsu's mother looked at him and stood up quickly. She ran over to hold his shoulders.
"You went outside? I thought I told you to not go outside!" She looked him over and took a glimpse at Junsu's father, who still sipped at his tea.
Junsu looked down and nodded.
"I'm sorry Umma.... I just... Wanted to play with hyung."
His father stood up and left the room leaving the two alone. They heard the door shut.
She smiled softly and held Junsu close, but her voice wavered, "Junsu, I don't want you to go outside without me."
"Why?"
She took his hand and held it against her cheek with depression filling her eyes.
"Because... I want you all to myself. You're mine and mine only... I don't want anybody to see your beautiful face."
Junsu looked at his mother's face and shrunk back with fear as he heard a faint voice.
It's because I don't want anybody to look at my son.... A defect...
I'm so ashamed....
Junsu held onto his head with his hands and his eyes darted back and forth to his mother and the door to the outside.
"Umma! My head hurts! Umma!" The world spun and Junsu blacked out.
END DREAM
"Umma..... UMMA!" I shot up from my bed and my body winced at the sudden movement I made. Beads of sweat dropped like bullets. I looked around and was greeted only by the soft moonlight through the streaked windows. My hands trembled.
I closed them together and closed my eyes, Please God... Hear my prayer.... Please don't let me die.
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Hello loves! :DD I was feeling greatly depressed while I was typing this. A t least it was an update right?..... -gets pelted with markers-
Well.... Can you feel the end coming along?.... I can't I think this is going to drag on... And I don't want to drag anything on.... :/
I'm sorry for the very quick I'm sorry/You're forgiven thing... :( I'm not good at that... and I didn't want those two apart for so long... THREE DAYS!!
School is about to start next month for me... And I am ready for it..... Not really.... But I will try to update :D
I had to go to Pennsylvania again.... Guh.... So I couldn't update sooner...
I look REALLY young for my age don't I? 17.... T^T I want to looker older!!
-sigh- But at least I look younger than my sister... :3
Please read and comment! I hope I didn't make anybody mad with this!! :DD -goes off and hides-