I've come to a realization. My thoughts and idealizations are too personal and controversial at times to be accessed by everyone. I know that I could always just limit my LiveJournal to friends only, but even then I do not feel as safe and secure. Every entry I write I must carefully screen and edit to make sure that I do not offend anyone. Who are ( Read more... )

ok, so steve doesnt call me at all yesterday. we may just be friends, but he still calls me right after work or at least before bed. so i try calling him from like 9:30-10 last night. no answer. so of course as i am falling asleep a million things fly thru my head. i am like, well we did fight again last night, maybe he killed himself out of ( Read more... )

i love will and grace. its such a great show. paul is right, i am so jack. maybe not as self-centered, but definitely as flambouyant most of the time. i wish i was as fit as him though. one of the episodes i watched tonight had him with his shirt off and i nearly fainted. LOL. Will has a nice body too. ^_ ( Read more... )

well today was a long day. not very many appointments at work, so the day went by slowly. had a few problems and i felt really dumb over a few things, but carol is a sweetheart an assured me that i was doing just fine. i have to work tomorrow 7-4, so i should get to bed soon ( Read more... )

me and steve are totally separated. he went to dr f tonight and the good dr said that i shouldnt be rushing steve to figure out who he is sexuality-wise. i guess he's right, but from where i am standing i cannot bare to sit around hoping to be with him only to have things shattered in the end. so i decided today that i need to completely get over ( Read more... )

hi, so like i was saying ( Read more... )

what does that mean and what do they really do? thats all proverbial ( Read more... )

ok, once again i blew something completely out of proportion. and apparently im not very good at covering up people when i write about them. no matter. people should mind their own business and opinions on some things. i believe that given people dirty looks or telling them that you dont like something just because in your own world things need to ( Read more... )

i am finally off on a holiday and all i want to do is work. i know that if i am at work i can atleast fake being happy and customer friendly. i would indulge in way too much work just so that i couldnt focus on the things that upset me. why did this all have to happen now? i guess its really all my fault like usual ( Read more... )

HA! yeah right... there isnt such a thing ( Read more... )