I had a weird but interesting dream last night ( Read more... )

Almost done with my first year of grad school...things have been a lot better in terms of making/being around friends. I went to someone's 21 birthday party recently and got tipsy for the first time haha, but at least I finally got relaxed. I even got housing without hand-holding, with some people that I like (hopefully that will not change). And I ( Read more... )

Being home alone is highly overrated. I've never felt this lonely for a while. I don't know anyone in this town, I feel disconnected from my family's church, and who would want to talk to me online ( Read more... )

Well this is probably gonna sound emo. But it's like, 7 in the morning so I don't think I can avoid it ( Read more... )

Just wanted to write this story down somewhere. One weekend my sister hosted a sleepover and I joined. A friend who couldn't make it due to illness was online and I told him that night something that made him very angry, which I immediately regretted. In bed I wept, and prayed, and as I started to think things through, the bigger picture became ( Read more... )

I've been a naughty friend. I've been constantly pestering people in a bad attempt to get closer with them. I'm not sure if I'm actually capable of developing meaningful relationships, as I've never done it before. I mean, at least I'm trying, but I don't think I can do it right. No one says it but I'm sure at least some people have found me ( Read more... )

At church today I heard things that were probably very good for me to hear concerning my second to last post. The pastor mentioned the pain of failing to achieve a dream...and that good things can come from it. He was right. Now that I think about it, I didn't care about other people so much before I had that dream and the feelings that came with ( Read more... )

Christmas and New Years have been pretty nice. nothing too exciting, but that's more of a good thing than a bad thing I guess. It's kind of weird to me how I've been ordering things on my own, getting credit cards, and doing the dishes for the family and such. I'm getting more and more independent. That's good (and about time) but also...weird. But ( Read more... )

It is being unfair to just leave my description of my junior year as my last entry, so it might help me to remind myself of the better things so far ( Read more... )

This year I seem to have been developing more and more of a sense of loneliness. I mean, I sort of felt this way last year, but not nearly as much; I was mostly at home with the idea of sort of hanging out more with myself than anyone else. However this year things are different, and I feel like there is a type of love building up inside me that I ( Read more... )