i think for the first time in my life, i actually wish my mother was dead. completely dead and gone for good. for all her efforts in life she has only caused me pain and done me little good. She steals my money, spends hers on liquor, can't afford to pay the bills because she spends too much cash. i buy her a car, and when i ask to take my ( Read more... )

ok....today was fucked up. majorly. had a mediocre day at school, and realized just how many people follow me like wandering jews...and just how easy it is to control them...that was cool. rebecca hates me guts, i laughed at her. then i went to work, and it was a shitty night. then went to meet up with maxine at the bar to watch my wonderous ( Read more... )

friends are the best thing in the world....someone tell mark i have his money...and i hope him and jer are ok....i got into a fight with the hot waitress lucia and daryl because they wouldn't let me fight....*sad* she said i wasn't welcome back if i went out to fight....i went anyways and no one was outside. *sadder* AND some fucking paki ass ( Read more... )

So this is how it goes....Lemmy break it down for ya.

1) I'm 19 and i've had some good times before.
2) you suck.
3) this is where shit changes for good.

today was the best worst day of my life. I've been in a super shitty mood altely, what with amxine having dates with nick, her ex, then her randomly telling me its best i not go to england with her, things have just been kinda shitty. ryan says its the beginning of the end, probably is but w/e. then i was pissy all day and we skipped school, and ( Read more... )

All those moments seem so special. Everything seemed so right. For every little thing gone wrong, I lose that feeling more and more. The continual let downs, atrophy my compassion and eat at it like a cancer. I still care. I still care...and that's my disease. I'll keep caring, and I'll keep being let down. And one day, way into the future, i will ( Read more... )

im such a bad person and i love it....i single handedly solved the health problem with my girlfriend. it's so simple it hurts...literally. im so proud of myself its awesome. and im converting her from being the biggest anti smoker on the planet, to a social smoker....she'll be one of us soon. im such a bad person, why am i proud of this???

and now i feel smart again =D

i need to be less stupid and more smart.

I rode false hope as far as it could take me. Less than 24 hours. Perhaps i read the fucking book at the wrong time. Perhaps i'm just over-dramatic. Perhaps I jump to conclusions too quickly. Perhaps it's all those...I do not know. I remember Amanda, and I remember the exact moment I felt happy with my life. I remember the concept of love I had so ( Read more... )