aaaaand as of july 1st i have no where to live.

So, when you're in elementary, middle, or high school - summer is the highlight of your school year. Right now I'm looking around at boxes of my things and walking down the street to see familiar faces driving away for four months. Right now, I'd probably do anything to make it September.

I feel like I'm falling apart right now.

Lots on my mind.

Including my [more-than-likely] possible surgery in the future.
And its complications.
And the tests I had to have done this morning.
And how much they sucked/hurt/made me cry like a baby in front of nurses.

Then there's -- what the hell do I want to do with my life?

Oh well. Answers will show up eventually.

this was the best valentine's day ever.

hands down.

dearest endocrine/neurotransmitter systems,
it's crazy how this time of year you really mess with my head. i have no reason to really be unhappy. i'm just afraid to get in too deep. i'm afraid of being hurt again. this bipolar reaction to a (almost entirely) good thing is unnecessary and totally unappreciated.

thank you.

sincerely,
stacey

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i've never felt like this before.

i feel like i don't deserve it...

i'm not walking on eggshells so other people can walk all over me.

i haven't even been home for two weeks and my family is becoming a migraine 24-7. i can't stand how my father constantly makes me feel inadequate because we just got my grades. My grades were FINE. consistant. except for my calc class...which--had he paid attention in high school--he should know i'm horrible at math. and he's bitching about how i'm ( Read more... )