Not sure how i feel I am lossing my room mate and gaining a husband maybe??? I am really starting to have cold feet not sure i want a man in my life right now....trying to rethink it all again.....I had decided it was all about me and i was looking at adpating and and all kinds of things and now i may be getting married...to a truck driver on top ( Read more... )

I really need to start taking care of my self. I have worked so much latly that i have not been taking care of my self. I don't do anything for me. Last night I painted for the 1st time in a long time and i felt really good. I don't care what happens from this point on I NEED TO STAND UP FOR MY SELF ( Read more... )

I got a very cute basset hound----_Tucker. I know that i have not respomded latly I really have been in a shitty mood latly and have not cared...I think that i am starting to change but it is going to take a min or too. I really want things in my life to be better and i want to be happy so i am going to try harder to do things for me more often ( ( Read more... )

Ok maybe this will make me feel better (although all I really need is a good nights sleep, or drugs to stay awake since I can;t sleep ( Read more... )

Well i am on hold with dl i thought i would write a few things.....I am feeling worse and worse every day, and i am not sure why. I cry my self to sleep most nights and am isolating myself from friends and family more and more. I even chose to work insted of going to class or to thearpy...What is wrong with me....I have a new niece, S is back in ( Read more... )

I am so sick of all these issues....I knew that s (my cousin) was leaving, but i was not ready for h and d to follow him. I am not sure that is a good idea but at least there is a hamaltion college up there and h can finish her schooling. I also am having issues with every one and I really wanting to say a few things to those around me they need ( Read more... )

I don't know why I get my hopes up. Nothing ever happens the way it should. I am so sick of not having someone and when i think that it is ok someone comes into my life says the right thing i so want to be with. I am tired of not having any thing and not being able to keep anything that i might have gotten. I so want my life to turn arouind. I ( Read more... )

Well they say that most people that try to commit sudice will again within the year. Well i made it to be 2 years old. Part of is almost upset that no one remebered that it was my brithday...the day i decided i want to live...so I may need help and i may need some support, but I am here. Happy Brithday to me!!!! so this week i have to do ( Read more... )

Well i am trying to update more, just seem to be soooooooooo busy...Still no baby if that niece of mine is not born soon i am going to make her be born...she was going to be here on the 31 may and still no baby....i can't wait ( Read more... )

I have decided that I am going to update more often. I kinda like this I get things off my mind and if someone wants to post to it I think that is cool too ( Read more... )