So yesterday was an interesting day. My mind was fucked. I cried a lot. I'm still thinking a lot about what is normal. It makes me upset that certain things are considered abnormal and that certain types of behavior are marked as crazy. What is sanity? What is normalcy? I believe it's all a bunch of bullshit myself. Why can't a boy cry in a field? ( Read more... )

I stopped writing in my livejournal because I messed up my username and I felt like a big doofus. Today is the hottest day ever. It is 88 degrees right now and I feel disgusting! I'm about to listen to Kari's radio show which should be fun. I'm gonna call her and request a song. I have math at two. I really hate math! Ok so this entry is pointless ( Read more... )

Today I threw a piece of strawberry cheesecake at David's head. There were pieces of graham cracker crust in his hair. I feel terrible. He wasn't mad at me. I think he knew he deserved it. He needs to stop calling me fat. "Oh look Kate's eating dessert again." "You might not recognize Kate next year when she weighs 800 pounds." Now I have known ( Read more... )

I just realized that i accidentally put staight up kate as opposed to straight up kate as my user name. I am such a fool. Ahhhh! 

This is my comp homework. I am supposed to write in a journal for 10 minutes a day. I always write down my life so it shouldn't be too dificult. I'll have to censor myself though. Radio training was yesterday. It was a little scary and you can't say anus on air nor vagina. I believe that Kari and I will be DJing together. That should be good ( Read more... )

I just realized that I shouldn't get a tattoo no matter how much of an urge I have to get one. I thought Dan and I would be together forever and now we won't be. So far in life I haven't known one thing that I would want forever and so I am not getting a tattoo. I called Dan just now because I'm a fool. I just had no one else to really talk to. No ( Read more... )

So this weekend is a little boring even though it has also been very eventful in both good and bad ways. I bought some art supplies today so that I can get all the ee-oo energy away from my soul. I think I'm gonna go play guitar now. I know exactly the pathetic folk songs I'm gonna play too. Yay! OH! but I still feel really sick to my stomach. Life ( Read more... )

I feel like I'm living a bad dream. Dan and I are no more or at least that's the current situation. I can't stop crying. Plus I feel that it's mainly my fault. Then I went to a party with David and Tricia and none of the guys there were worth my life at all. All I could think of was how I wished Dan was there. I feel so lost because he was my whole ( Read more... )

I am such a fuck up that I don't even know if fuck up is one word, two words, or a hyphenated word. I think I'll always mess up what's good in my life. I think it's my nature. Anyway so Dan is taking a walk right now because I admitted to him that my mind has been a slut lately. I don't know what to do.  Plus this song is making me cry.

Dan is on his way right now. There are no classes for three days. I'm almost done with all my work. Life is being pretty nice to me. I had a math quiz today and I was one of the last three losers there. I think I did well though. I went over each problem about three times. I'm really sad that so many people are going home this weekend, but I'm sure ( Read more... )