" I never can do anything right", I feel so bad for making him feel like that I guess Im way to hard on him but I honestly dont mean it, but I need to stop. Treating someone that way isnt right and Im gonna try to stop it. Stop being so hard on him and making such a big deal outta the little things.

Tonight was an awesome night, I just chilled at home doing my own thing like I used to. I felt like me again. Lately theres been so much going on I feel like I've lost who I am. I mean when was the last time I sat in my room and just chilled and listened to music. That used to be a big part of my life. I know that may sound pathetic but its what ( Read more... )

I just need to chill out, he loves me and I have to get that through my head, I cant keep acting like this, but even though I know I need to stop I cant help it cuz Im so fuckin scared.

I depsise people who choose to use drugs and let them take over there life, people who do drugs period digusts me. I thought about this today at work since I had plenty of free thinking time. I regret ever smoking weed atleast as much as I used to, yes there were some good times but in the end it was never worth all the lying. I'm a better person ( Read more... )

I feel like Im fucking up so bad with him, and It just keeps happening. I don't want to lose him. He's everything.

As sure as night is dark and day is light
I keep you on my mind both day and night
And happiness I've known proves that it's right
Because you're mine,
I walk the line

I'm in the AV room now, I get so sick of being in here so much everyday. Can't stand most of the people.lol I'm in a ok mood today though so Im not gonna fuck with it. Keith told me Matt got stoned at the party on Saturday...why cant he just fuckin tell me? Hes keeping shit from me and I hate it.I really dont know. and then him hanging out with the ( Read more... )

Today I realized just how amazing the people in my life are...

I love you and thanks for everything...

I just got home from like 6 hours at the hospital...I'm so tired, its hard to sit there that long, I feel like I'm watching my Father slip away from me, and all I can do is sit and watch. Matt asked me about him and I started crying hysterically and told him I didnt wanna talk about it. I really don't wanna lose my Dad. No one can really understand ( Read more... )

I decided I'm going to try to hang out with my friends as much as possible..it's Senior year, next year this all could be gone ( Read more... )