today is starting where last night took off.  i am in the worst of moods, and all i want to do is get the fuck out of this house.

and i doubt i will get that wish.

If the world would end,
And there was only me,
What would I do then?
Whose face would I see?

Whose touch would I feel,
Gently caressing my skin?
Leaving behind the seal,
That would always mark my sin.

Would I remember your kiss,
Still lingering on my lips?
When my breath was a hiss,
And my heart would do flips.

Would I feel the love
That you felt for me?
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i have come to a realization.
Meaningless thoughts that should have come before they did, when they could have been actions.
one that basically makes me dislike myself.
Feeling as though we are all just ants that have been forgotten and allowed to run free.
and i dont know what to do about it.
The truth is i never know what to do.  I am a lost boy in a ( Read more... )

one of the most hurtful feelings is to figure out that someone you care about could give two shits about you.

(just in a friend sense, but still, it sucks.)

i feel like im dying.

its sad or good that i could really care less.

work. hang out. sleep.

rinse, lather, repeat.

its not bad.

tis not good.

it simply is.

eventually you lose everything you love, far sooner than you ever think you will.

sorry i bother trying...
next time ill be sure not to bother...

my hands are shaking, my knees want to buckle
i see what waste really is
how wanting and needing are two differnt things
words like water
flowing freely as if lost in misery

hello forever
sorry i couldnt bring a friend.

i realize now that i am not strong enough for this...

to bad there is no choice...

i feel half alive.

just like watching tv on mute.

for a second there, i almost felt so alive that i could die again.

good thing there was never a thump in my chest.