so yeah, today was fine. errrg i really dont want to go to utah... im going to have so much work to do when i get back. I have to o to thi s"activities" ceremony at calvert hall tonight and im really afriad, i feel absolutly horrible about everything that happend, and i dont know if he got my note, and yeah im being nurotic... but yeah. well see ( Read more... )

soo yeah im taking this entry out because im gonna try to forget about all of that drama... sorry...
much love

ok.. charlie has dicided to go back to his ex.. and im just kinda out of it... adn shocke d and hurt... and hopefully i'll never have to see him again.

hmmm so yeah its tuesday.. and im quite happy that its almost over. Nothing horrible happend today but nothing too wonderful either. so yeah B days suck, and im very glad that tomorrows an A day. ...8 mores days untill i leav for utah. God im going to be completly screwed for the voice final (missing 2 days of accompanist rehersal)but i m semi ( Read more... )

so here it is.. my tell all about this boy whos been turninf my life upside down.. i really dident think i would ever publicaly vent about it, but i think its come to this. so yeah we've been getting closer, and its been good... and his ex interfeering was never an issue, untill now. Adn now im back in to this whole fucking "which girl is he going ( Read more... )

hmmmm.... the recital went .. ok. Not wonderful by any account but oh well.. what can ya do. So yeah my afternoon has been spent sleeping, playing guitar, and trying to distance my self from my family as much as possible. My lord things are getting insanely crazy around here... does anyone want to adopt me?... at least my dads not home.. and when ( Read more... )

wow.. last night was hell at the miller house hold, As usually my dad being the ass hole that he is, went on a rampage about some bull shit (i think it was how were not good enough for him this time)... um yeah he yelled at my mom, who worked all day about drinking one of his beers, its fucking mothers day!... get a grip. so yeah i was soo upset, ( Read more... )

i was reading beccas journal... and i came across this lovely poem that i think i have to share with the world ( Read more... )

Its mothers day ( Read more... )

dont you hate it when you dont get sad about somthing untill your alone and have no one to cry with?... the play went amazing i am going to miss it so much. i never really thought i would be upset when it ended, i dont know.. i honestly dont know how im really feeling. im extremly confused about most everything going on in my life right now. and i ( Read more... )