You know,it never fucking fails.As if my two hours of sleep and tremendous amount of school work wasn't enough for a day,I find out that stupid fucking emo-bitch of an asshole hurt her yet again.That dickhead thinks he's God's gift to this world,and he needs to get the damn idea of his head before I punch him in the fucking face.Everything.It ( Read more... )

I never felt so many things in a performance.Ever.I was so angry that I could hardly bare it.And my show was good...I was quite satisfied with [most of] it...But I can't even describe how I felt.It was such pure anger.What scares me is that I've been like this for about a week now.And I got a chance for some therapy,via peforming like a mad woman ( Read more... )

My hair is all nice and done for tomorrow.I freaking love Taylor!She does such an amazing job with my nasty mane of hair!...And driving with her and Caroline is pretty amusing.It's nice just to be with them outside of practice and school.Feels good.A big relief,to be honest.

I was listening to the radio about an hour ago and heard a song that made ( Read more... )

Sittin' here at Prada's.Eating and bumming out before practice.Eh.Kinda looking forward to it today only because I had a flawless run during class.But my left wrist hurts like a bitttcchhhh,especially when I go to toss that damn six.I mean once I get into the moment of spinning I can kind of tune it out (but it's still a muffled pain)...but it just ( Read more... )

Something's changed.I don't know what.But something has.I feel a lot different,and I'm looking way different to myself.I looked in the mirror this morning and thought "Wow,I look old...what the hell happened?".I've got dark circles under my eyes,and my overall appearance has just...drastically changed in the past year.I don't know what's happening. ( Read more... )

I'm looking back at all of these entries and I'm tempted to just click the delete button on every single one of them.Reading them makes me realize what a total sensitive fool I can be. >.<

But enough dwelling,because I've cut the strings of attachment to someone.After three and a half years of Julia and all of the crap she did,I've learned to let go ( Read more... )

Alyssa is the first person in a while that I've truly found myself always caring about.And now I find out that she'll be going to a school in Dade county after the break...which really just...shattered just about anything good I had going for me.But here's the thing ( Read more... )

I'm finding myself to be in a rather frustrating situation.
Not to mention the added stress of everything else...

I thought that at least for once I'd have this aspect of my life under control

So right now,the agonizing wait for who made world guard should occupy the most amount of space in my mind.Thank God for this amazing girl...and her lovely texts.I have something better to keep my attention.

Alyssa: Can I tell you a secret?

Me: Yeah...

Alyssa: You look pretty today

Me: Aw thank you :] you make me smile

Alyssa: You should smile more ( Read more... )

So there's this girl...
Lovely eyes.Lovely personality.
...Lovely hair that's gone just about everywhere on the color scale.
xD
[[it's turned just about every color of the rainbow and is still going]]

I'm working hard on getting to know "Papel"[[the nickname that Samantha Miller and I gave to her due to her extreme pale skin tone lol]].And to be honest, ( Read more... )