lmfao  step_a_knee.

faggot with ur lj. 
lol!

 shit i can't even remember wat was going on in my life last time i posted here. 
well let's start with the typical updates: i'm in college @ FAU i like it for now. i live in the dorms and i can't stand them so i'll be moving to an apartment once may hits and my lease is up. it sucks that i gotta stick it out til then but meh that's life. i'm seeing ( Read more... )

so i haven't updated in a LONG LONG TIME. 
life is grand. 
w.e 
went through some tough tough stuff this past year. 
suicide destroys don't ever try it.

i'm a senior! 30+ days left! sah-weet! 
um. 
i'm 18. 
um. 
that's about it. 
how's everyone doing these days?

so somewhere along the way of becoming friends i fell for him. it was stupid of me & i knew it wouldn't work. but i had it in my head that we we're just as we appeared,... just friends.

but then he did something to me that i couldn't ignore & suddenly rumors were flying that we were "dating."

i'm so glad everyone takes such an avid interest in my ( Read more... )

so i had a crazyass dream last night. well actually a series of weird dreams.
firstly: hunter & i were hanging out with my mom & sister, we were drivin in hunter's truck & my mom & sister were behind us. it was just odd.
secondly: mike & i were hanging out @ like a rest station(?) on the side of the road kinda thing. & we were still being on break ( Read more... )

so maybe i've fallen even though i told him not to.
maybe i have finally lost it.
idk.
but then again.
maybe it's not love.
idk.
but he makes me smile. he doesn't abuse me.
& yeah.
maybe it's just that finally someone treats me right.
i don't know but i'm really happy.

so i havent done this shit in forever ( Read more... )

i dislike that pepople dislike me when i did nothing wrong to them
so y does he dislike me?
i wouldnt care if it was someone i could avoid easily *ok not true i would still care* but its the kid i work with

& i gotta work with him today
fuck.

i hope life gets better from here.

i'm beginning to think it never will.

fuck

fuck

fuck

FUCK