Okay!
it's been almost a year since i last wrote an entry into this thing. ooft, i was kinda in a bad way back then. Reading the old entry's is kinda scary. Aw well, its the way i was.. not am.

Kay. Now. My Present.
WAY over downie. Thats like.. MEGA PAST! Ooft. I've got new boyfriend, Jeff. Most amazing ever. I <3 him. We have been together just over ( Read more... )

Slowly getting over him. I'm looking at other people now, i guess thats a good thing. I want someone new. I want someone to hold and love, and be loved back. I feel so alone right now.

I want someone. They won't want me.
Life is what i make it.

I want to be hapy, truly happy. Just once, at least for a day.

This time i wanted something real: Something they could see, and feel its real. Something they wish they had ( Read more... )

I can't fake it, no matter what they say. I'm gonna push it.
I'm gonna fight it! I will become strong - No matter what it takes.
Here's where i stand, and here's who i am. You cant tear me down no more!
I will become so much stronger, i wont wait any longer! I know i can make it!I'm a fighter, im not a quitter. I'm not gonna let you get me down or ( Read more... )

Pulling myself up. Forcing myself sane. I need to realise i have to move on. Ive got to get over hurt and pain ( Read more... )

as i lay in my coma,
i dream of what my wish to be.
fantasy and fairytales?
too fake! instead i have reality.

my gremlins chasing me
tearing apart my soul
i ran after thinking id be ok
to realise im a fool
happiness driven away
love driven apart
now whats my reality?
my wish to be once happyMy Fantasy has ended ( Read more... )

Another page turned, another chapter finished ( Read more... )

Now i wish i weren't alive.

Where was I when I was happy?
Where have i ended up?
Whats so wrong with my feelings?
How can i solve it?
Should I leave it and let it fade?
My past is gone, is my future at stake?
What do i want?

I don't know where the questions have come from. I should be happy, sometimes i am, at some point i will be. What do i want ( Read more... )

I'm waiting for you
I'm hot today
My body's dripping
I'm soaking wet
I'm feeling dirty
You won't regret
So get in the shower
Let's get soaking WetHey all. Had a .. interesting week so far. John came home from Sweden, so basically been partying since Monday night, he's gone away now though :(.. so me and downie are going to Sweden in the summer to ( Read more... )

Yo ho. It's 01;28am in the morning and i'm no longer at Kinross, I don't know where I am now, hehe. Suzie has kidnapped me and taken me back to her house. She and her mum are both sleeping so i'm just borrowing the internet for a while, haha. Although the big scary dog is still wandering about. It's a sap now tho, and rather cute. Although it is ( Read more... )