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I am a wreck of a person. I cant seem to form any New friends and experiences. I cant seem to hold onto the relationships I've had with people and my time and life is slipping away from me. I feel empty inside and I try to fill that void with all sorts of things like: Food, Drugs, alcholol and other sorts of illegal behaviors.
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Where to go, what to do? I have no Idea what I should be doing with my life sure enough I gratuated high school like I was suspost to and now what? There are so many decsions out there its soo hard to choose from. Maybe I should be some sort of an artist? ......but what am I really good at? would I like it enough to make a career of it, or ( Read more... ) -
Disposable Friends
I hate being used someone who is suspost to be your friend ends up usiing you for the "things" you have at you disposial. They say "Oh I'll call you tommorow..." and I think yeah sure that will be the day. and my phone becomes as useful as the paper weight on my desk sitting there collecting dust (why do I have a paper weight?)
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Dreaming: Females/ ME
The other night I had yet another bazzar and comfunsing dream. The confusing thing is that I was happy (dosen't happen to often in my life ( Read more... ) -
Wheres my happy ending?.......
I've been up to my same ol antics again. Only this Time I cant seen to find anyone to share it with. Phisically my life is getting better, Ive lost a lot of weight (110ibs) and have been taking better care of myself, But why cant I have the hapiness I desirve? or am I not worthy of it yet?
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standing still .....
I just want to keep moving on in my life, yet things or rather people in my life (including myself ) set me back. My username goes well in describing my life right now it's at a standstill. Nothing new happens just the same ol shit on a different day. People walk down there chossen paths and I just stand there pondering the little things in my ( Read more... ) -
Dreams are so wierd. "J and I"
The other night I had a dream that was most bazaar. It was weird because in this dram I had a brother. In my real life I do have a brother but he's older, though in my dream I had a younger brother who was much younger than Myself. His name was J and he was between 10-12 years of age with coke bottle glasses and redish hair. I think ( Read more... ) -
that crazy cartoonist in me...
So other then writing what I do for fun is Draw. I mostly doodle but I recently got into this art class Ive really just been sketching alot some more wierd then others, but hey were all wierd ass people. Aren't we?
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popping my live journal cherry!!!
So hey everyone who bothers to read new bloggs (I dont). This is me I'm Alex and I live a sad existance that I thought all of you would feel better about yourselfs when you read or rather dident read.
I've been reading quite a few books recently and I thought it was a good time to let people know what i'm thinking about. Ive been ( Read more... )
