First off, i'm hurting soo bad right now becuase i love jenni sloat and she doesnt feel the same way. At night i just wish that i could just become a star and see her every nite she goes outside. When she looks up and stare at the sky at nite, i would be there to shine, and she'll know i'm there. Or if she's cold i'll be the warm air so i could ( Read more... )

Man, i'm really really hurting. I havent found a cure for this or getting older, and its tearing me apart. I really love her sooo much. I love her, four words i was always affraid to say to someone. But i do, i honestly do. Like its plays over and over in my head, like a record, the days when we first hung out, the days she would invite me to go ( Read more... )

So there's been some stuff going on in my life, and thigs are starting to change for once, which isnt too often that happens. Its hard because i realize certain things now that i didnt before and it hurts to reflect on all the mistakes made. There are also things i realize that i miss soo much, like: oily skin against my face at nite, late calls, ( Read more... )

Ok so like school started, and i feel like crap. I feel soo lonely, i guess it doesnt matter. I should accept it. I really havent felt a sense of happiness in soo long. I kinda forgot that feeling of just being alive, and being happy to wake up to a new day. Kinda weird, i kinda feel like something is empty inside ( Read more... )

Demo is done, i like three of the tracks, one of them is ok, like the music is sweet, but i have to get the vocals right. Jesse's part is rad, but i'm glad its all done with. We'll get the songs up one myspace soon ( Read more... )

THINK IN FAST, THINK IN FAST, what we're doing is THINK IN FAST!!! So we have a few songs done, some have lyrics some do not, i'm working on them as we speak, oh yeah must mention "5 fucking dollars in one of them". Once we have a demo done, i must number one, find a guitar player that will play our stuff no matter what and no changing our music at ( Read more... )

My headaches are starting to go away! Like i was soo pissed, for two weeks straight i would like have a headache everyday. It sucked soo bad, it was pretty gnarly. I really think the headaches were stress related, i've been like stressin sooo much about life and my future. I'm not sure what i want to do, but i'm sure that i dont want an office job ( Read more... )

So i just got back from like 3 hours of skating in parking lots!! Dude i havent done that in years, in fact it feels good skating again. I can go in and out of skating and it takes me a few days to get back to where i was kinda. I think i would have to skate everyday for like a month to be as good as i was before, i dont know if it's possible, ( Read more... )

So i came up with some awesome lyrics about how stanford should stand alone, well not the school but a person who goes there. It's fucking honest and positive about fucking lying and trying to maintain a certain friendship with lies. It could never and will never happen in my life. Yet even after all of this a person can always change, but the ( Read more... )

So to start summer off i saw LIGHTS OUT twice last week. Those guys are always fun to watch and this week i saw dispute three times. They were backyard shows and i was soo stoked cause it was free. Toys, bats, lots of blonde girls from norcal, messing around in the pit, dispute giving the mic to a little dog that was near him while singing means ( Read more... )