i really don't know what to do. period. im 17 yrs old. my entire life has been in shambles. junior year things started looking up. i was positive senior year was gunna be the breaking point. it had more ups than other years, but all in all its still the same shit. yes im young in age, but in mind,  im not. and thats just a fact. its not something i ( Read more... )

so in result to all my crying and feeling shitty for about a month, the storm has hopefully come to a calmness. if thats a word. and as of now im feeling really good about it. really good. so good when i showered i shaved my legs.. then scrubbed my feet and just got done painting them. allof a sudden i wanna be pretty...just for me and one other ( Read more... )

i believe in everything being 50/50.  right now i feel so empty. im not myself anymore. it could be this over working from school but i dont think thats the case. things dont seem like the way they were. when i was happy. everything is completly different. i miss everything. every detail. you can't depend on anyone for happiness. i dont anymore. ( Read more... )

now i remember why i hate lea so much. yea so we jus beent talkin as friends for like less than a week. lately shes been kinda nice but i knew that shit wouldnt last. and of course i was right. she asks me to come over today n chill, n i said maybe i will. then she adds in, bring me some money so i can get to work. i was going to go there as well ( Read more... )

so yeah. lifes been ok lately. mad shit happened over break. mad friend conflict but im tryin not to let it bug me. i had some fun random nights tho. i hung out with my friends new and old. it was a good time. i also chilled with lea. most random of all. i figured why not. i missed her family most of all. and the ppl we used to chill wit. i talked ( Read more... )

ok so i bitch alot. o well. right now im in the weirdest state of mind. i have no idea whats going on with anything. last night was the most random night ive ever encountered in friendship life. me jess n jos chilled in the beginning went to yoyos then elena n jonny passed by. we did our thing n went to bed. wen we were at yoyo's i didnt understand ( Read more... )

ive been in PA for a few days. ill update with stories n pictures soon as i get them.

im in a dilemma. my emotions are all over the place. i dont exactly know what to think about anything anymore. all i kno is im addicted to the shins n jack johnson n they're undercover emo. i dont wanna be emotional right now.

im sick of people taking advantage ( Read more... )

i love pictures!


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friday night i had great fun with friends. no need to get into detail. i missed the girl who peaced out. n im mad jose n blake couldnt join us... shit happens i guess.

i miss yoyo alot right now. havent seen her in a week. when she comes back i just wanna goto her house, put on a cd and lay on the couch. i just wanna look at her for awile.

lea ( Read more... )

today me njes met niggers. they are total tricks. i have a feeling we'll be getting nextels pretty soon. the one dude liked jes cuz she the model type. the most they gettin is a hug and they get to be seen with us maybe.

i love stupid buffalo boys.
i such a feminist lesbian.