oh yeah p.s. i think im addicted to sex. but i dont want it with anyone else. im scared someone is gettin booty elsewhere while im sitting here waiting. is that the right thing to do? its been over a month. i really cant take handle this.end of the p.s.

Today Lea calls me cryin. Tysheka's mom is dying and shes not gunna make it. i guess shes been sick for awhile and shes the secretive type so no one knew anything. she went to the hospital today and she has tubes all over her body. all the doctors keep saying is "We've done all we can. Doesnt look like she's gunna make it" over n over.they said not ( Read more... )

yes so the first thing im gunna say is right now, im very high. it might disgust some of you, but I'm sry.( i love u jes) now. there's a reason for why I am in this state of intoxication... ive been thinkin something bad was gunna happen for awhile now. and i guess you can say that bad finally happened. right now i don't even feel any emotion ( Read more... )

havent written in awhile. write now im in a glass case of emotions. im starting to think about college and going away. i dont know if i want to. but then i kno if i dont, i might regret it later, and if i do, ill probably wanna come back home. so i'll never really know. i wanna goto the city but im starting to think the money isnt there, and never ( Read more... )

so about that friday night! ok so i was mad tired friday. school was regualr but we rehersed like mad ppl. im mad excited about the piece tho. me n jes r gunna have fun. but yeah after rehersal after school me n jes went tanning. it felt nice. then i dropped her off at home and i went back to moms n napped. i over slept cuz i was feeling warm n fat ( Read more... )

first thing.so yeah.best news ever. my mom has 3 cists just chillin in her ovaries. ovarian cancer? whats up! thats amazing... shes the last person in my life that i need to lose right now. there stil diggin n searchin tho.

second thing. ive decided yolanda hates me. here are the things she cant stand. im overly affectionate. super touchy feely. ( Read more... )

i wanna talk about how fucking amazing my valentines day was. first in school, i am called to the office thinking that my dad was there to yell at me or lea was there to exchange some words. all i see is yolanda. a ig ass card. roses, balloons and candy. i read thecard and i cried. she said some things that i really needed to hear from her. it just ( Read more... )

this weekend was really horrible. friday. i dunno what the case is or whats goin on but someones lyin. and i dont like liers.. all i kno is bitches better stay out my relationship. saturday, i was wit my mom and were walkin, and i fuckin twist my ankle again. ppl think this shit is cake... these r my feet im constantly on them. the shit hurts bad. ( Read more... )

How can you attain happiness if you don't accept it into your life? sometime i dont think people actually want it. i try my best to help others feel good, cuz then i feel good. but lately i dont feel like ive been doin my job correctly. lately ive been feelin kinda down n im not sure why. i feel like sumthin bad is gunna hapen. im usually wrong at ( Read more... )

so yesterday i went to yoyo's. i havent seen her since last thursday. i was goin kinda crazy. we chilled wit her friend lisa, they taught me how to play spades. it was fun. then lisa's girl came over n we all played. me n her girl beat them (haha!) n it was nice. yeah i got pretty tipsy. n yeah. had some AMAZING BEST TIMES EVER! but yeah. that girl ( Read more... )