So i just want to say that i hate being a girl. I met this completely amazing guy who would do anything for me and does. Who when i am with everything comes natural and there is no need to pretend ever. who i feel the need to tell everything to. Who i have spent the last 3 days with and will be with till wed. Who i am pretty sure i could see ( Read more... )

So it's so weird i am so tired i am too tired to think about boys or about shane or ryan or what i want to happen. I think i have just decided that they can do it now and i will just follow and if it feels right great if not than i will move on i know how to survive.

All i can say is this sucks. Why is it that when a guy is actually really good to you, you don't really like him. Well than there are guys that are good to you and you do like them but than you are probably pretty sure they don't like you and it just all sucks major hairy ass. yeah well anyway i just had to say that out loud.

yeah so what do you do when you know you want something but you don't know what you want? i thought i about just saying forget it all but i really like both and i don't know what to do i really think that something really great might come out of one but thats the problem ONLY ONE

It's funny how awesome it is when you let the feeling of settling behind and really see what is out there. Last night i had two different but equally amazing conversations with what i am thinking to be great guys. and i can't wait to hang out with them. Life really throws some curve balls sometimes and it's nice when you get a hit. I don't know ( Read more... )

so i sat here about three months ago well maybe not right here but at this computer and wrote about how i wish me and john were still together and all that good stuff wrote him and letter and was crying the whole time i am sure. Well now i sit here happier than anything because i am not with him. I still write his grandma she wants me to come visit ( Read more... )

big note to self:sex doesn't solve anything and especially when it involves a small penis. that is really mean but it is just weird and has to end.
Bigger note to self: you are a complete idiot and the worst girlfriend good thing he dumped your ass 3 months ago.

How to tell if you have had a productive night parting. You all got the hook up. You come in after 5am in the morning. you have to make a pee stop on the way home to Indy. And you just know you had a good time. Last night was awesome as well as the night before. now i know why i didn't go to purdue or iu all i would do is party. yeah i guess that ( Read more... )

like i said he would be back. and he is.

I just want to say i had an awesome time at IU girls you are the best. I can't wait till next month when you guys come up. we are going to have some fun. I miss you guys and the way we are when we are together and Laura hope you get to work with shane next time you work. Sorry i had a penis talking problem but hey it happens. laura hope i didn't ( Read more... )