its been a week, and it feels like it was yesterday..

i cant do this

so for 7 months he leads me on and on, we end up hooking up and he treats me amazing

he takes my virginity and then tells me right after that hes in love with someone else.

okay, im a big girl.... its fine...

I HATE MY LIFE ( Read more... )

i dont know where to turn anymore. i thought id be ok with being without ryan but im not. nothing has been ok SINCE he left. NO one understands me or my dreams. i realte to NO one. no one in school, at work.. NO ONE. i am 100 percent alone. i hate my mom and im so scared about going to court tomorrow i love how my mom is helping me out with ( Read more... )

sooo okay... im really FALLING for him. this is so not good at all ( Read more... )

I don't think I've ever had SUCH a bad new years ever..ryan left and I'm just like empty...and meagan didn't get to come back to wayne and she was by herself to and I'm just not complete without both of them...I hate this. Even my mom had something to do last night and she slept out and so did my brother..I mean alaina and mike and dawn stil came ( Read more... )

so i had like a pretty decent thanksgiving. my mom made good food and me her and my brother spent the night together and then i went to sleep and woke up and got ready for ryan to come home ( Read more... )

happy thanksgiving everyone!!! i thought i would post something happy for once ( Read more... )

beauty and the beast is over. im happy. but at the same time im sad because i know he;ll never talk to me ever again. i wrote him a letter becasue after we spent the night at janine house with me in his arms its just been hard to let go of the thought that maybe we could be .... and in my letter i wrote out what i felt and how proud i was of him ( Read more... )

so my life is so stressful i hate it and i really really miss ryan. like, i was ok for a while but now i just miss him more than anythng. he;s the one who keeps me grounded. everyday i think about how much i want to get into AMDA ( i audition in about a month ) im so nervous i want it so bad, i want to be in the city i want to live my dream. ( Read more... )