Boo!

Why does all these horrible thoughts have to run through my head...Ugh. I've done things wrong but I've apologized soooo many many times for everything and these thoughts will not leave. It's so frustrating and scary.

I don't know how to explain anything really...

I haven't been online much lately.

I seem to have fallen into some sort of funk. I've been really down and it came on really suddenly. I can't seem to get horrible thoughts out of my head that really scare me.

I just want to be better.

Johnny has been having the hardest time sleeping the past few nights, I'm sure it's teething.
But it's so frustrating. He just cries and cries and I feel like there is nothing I can do for him.

I wish the teeth would finish coming in!

I feel so bad for Johnny with him teething. He wants to be held by me and mostly only me most of the time. He just seems so miserable...more and more as the day goes one ( Read more... )

Blah, My stupid computer died. I swear it's one thing after another. I lost my camera and it had a ton of pictures of Johnny and now my computer doesn't want to work...I so don't want to lose all of those pictures as well. Frustrating it is.

John is going to clean it out so hopefully that will work *crosses fingers*.

5 months PP and I'm wondering...when the hell are my hormones going to balance back out? Seriously ( Read more... )

I used to have a livejournal, and the reason I signed back up is because I've been feeling nostalgic.

Blah, hows that for a first post? lol

Seriously though, I just wanted a place to vent and to get an insight on my friends lives, since it's so hard to stay in touch.