a 40oz to freedom is the only chance i have to feel good, even though I feel bad ( Read more... )

I feel lost, i miss alex, hes all i can think about, Im depressed and today i wrapped a phone cord wire across my neck and tryed to choke myself. I hate myself I hate my life I hate that ive lost all my friends. I give up.

all i want is for at my funeral everyone to take bong hits and remember me. :(

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Nothings wrong
Im just wastin
All the time that Ive tasted
Take me back on a time trip

Wont you take me back then
Why dont you take me

Nothings wrong
Im just wasted
Im the one whos tastin
All the time that Im faced with

Damn dude, what a fucking weird ass couple of days. I am in the strangest place right now i feel so lost inside. I met this guy like totally randomly and hes like already fallen in love with me after one day. Im scared kinda. he like wnats to move in and all and i feel like i hardly know him. i dunno what to think or if i can trust him. hes like ( Read more... )

Your Famous Last Words Will Be:
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So I got my tenth point at work today. Means I no longer have a Job. that sucks hardcore. So now i feel lost again. I dunno what to do anymore man. I want alex back :( I miss him and its killing me inside. Ive been doing all sorts of things im not okay with and its caused by the pain inside my soul. I feel like i lost the other half of my soul. I ( Read more... )

So i woke up yesterday alex had called in sick so i ended up riding the bus to work. we had a slight disagreement before hand so i didnt even get to tell him i loved him or hug him goodbye. I went to work and called his phone later that night, only to have his sister answer. and tell me she wasnt sure where he was but she had his phone. i thought ( Read more... )

I am not really sure what to think or feel at this time. my boyfriend is very quiet and distant it seems lately. he spends more time on his laptop then he does with me. He also wont communicate how hes feeling which makes it very hard for me. I kinda think he may been planning on dumping me. lately his family has been coming down on him to get rid ( Read more... )

Life has been pretty random lately. I ended up getting a new job At this place Basiclly i re up peoples phone mintues for cingular. Its really the most comfy job and the least amount of psychical work that i have had to do in a long ass time. so thats good. 9 bucks to sit in a comfy chair and take calls i cant complain. Been getting along better ( Read more... )