After going out to the gay bar, I am going to cry. Yes, now I'm crying.

So, umm my life has been crazy. As usual. As a summary of this past year, lets highlight some things ( Read more... )

so today I told my philosophy teacher, when discussing phenomenology, and trying to make an analogy, that in lucid dreams you are aware, and therefore have control. And he said, no, you are aware, that doesn't mean you have control. And when observing your presentation, from outside yourself, there is no control, there is awareness, but no thought ( Read more... )

I am sitting in the library, exhausted, always having work to do. I feel like even when I work super super hard, and don't procrastinate much, I still don't get things done the way I want. So I refuse to sacrifice going out once in a blue moon or down time for my sanity, and I barely have that. (Side not : this guy just moved next to me and said I ( Read more... )

So life has been hectic. Classes=hectic/stressful. Moving=stress. But on a good note, moving=yay! because Danielle is moving in with mike and I. And we are hopefully gonna have our own rooms, which is a double yay! So that we have our own space, and maybe the place will be bigger. I'm just sooooooo excited for her to be here. I miss her, even ( Read more... )

I had a dream last night that I moved to San Francisco (even though it looked like San Diego), by myself, driving. I moved in with a man I didn't know. The tire fell off my car. The man took my car, and brought cheaper cars that he stole for me to choose from. I think he stole something else of mine to be replaced as well. I yelled at him and ( Read more... )

I seem to have the strangest dreams when I am napping from shear exhaustion. Today (which is really yesterday) I dreamed I was at the ceramics studio with meghan, and erin from ceramics. Erin went to the library, which was much different from the real library here, and Meg and I were going to meet her. We went into the library and Erin was there, ( Read more... )

Today I was talking to Danielle on the phone, speculating about our future children. And I was saying how cool and ethnic our babies would be, with the whole french/Italian thing. And then like five minutes later I remembered that women can't have babies together, and I got really sad. It's funny how I just forgot that we would need sperm, and that ( Read more... )

I love you Danielle, more than you can possibly imagine.

So, I'm starting to get that changing itch again. I feel like I need to make some big change in my life. I was looking at study abroad, but thats a big hassle, and I don't really have what I would need to apply for the spring session. And I don't want to do the fall session, because I want to go to either australia or new zealand, and that is when ( Read more... )