I have thrown away all I have ever loved Unless such never existed It is all erased now Who is here to tell me I am beautiful When I can never see it Bring me back to reality When I never meant to leave

"But fear is confusing. It tears you in two. Half of you wants to run far, far away, but the other half is paralyzed, frozen, immovable. And the hard part is that you never know which half is going to win."(p14, Finding Alice)