I worked today. It wasn't particularly eventful. Really boring actually. I don't hate my job i just get bored easily. I wish there was more for me to do for 12 hours of my day. I sat and walked around, pretended to work, talked to some people, walked around some more. So i guess i shouldn't be b@#^%ing so much because i get paid pretty well for ( Read more... )

We had a new fight today. He almost left me. I cried, more then i thought i could. But we talked for hours and i told him how much i loved him. We decided to try to work things out. I did something so bad. I can't believe how much i almost messed things up. I'm so stupid.

Have you ever had one of those really bad times in your life, when nothing seems to go right? Everything seems hopeless and all i can do is cry. Life seems bleak and i don't know why. The smallest, mundane things are enough to give up over. Or at least it seems. I cut myself again today. Not deep. But enough to bleed. My boyfriend cried. He asked ( Read more... )