I was waiting for Matthew to wake-up from a nap at my parent’s house. Their TV was tuned into Steve Harvey’s TV Talk show, so I decided to watch a little bit of it. There was a segment on The Biggest Loser. I used to periodically watch the show for reveals or “post-TV-show life” when they first started, but it's been years since I've watched. Steve ( Read more... )

One time my extended family was talking about a family friend living with cancer, and I said I would be happy to know that that was what I’d be dying from. Everyone went silent, like I had basically said I had committed murder. Thinking back to it, I can still feel how uncomfortable the room got. It was as if saying that meant that I was somehow ( Read more... )

You know what’s hard about right now…? “Nothing”. For years I have had things, lots of things, things that I needed to see, to make happen, things that only I could do because I was the only one who had time to do them. I was busy and it was chaotic and I wondered if I would ever be done ( Read more... )

I went to Napa for a wedding, specifically my cousin Ben’s. I basically grew up with him during elementary school. Summers were my sister, Ben and I at my grandma’s house making forts on the back-deck, playing lava and alligators on the stairs, going to the library via the blue wagon in the back, backyards-facing seats, and torturing the dogs while ( Read more... )

I was going to sit here and talk about how we are leaving for Hawaii. That it will be the first time Aurelia will go to the North Shore beach house. That it has been nine years since Nick and I have gone; the last time being when we got engaged. I wanted to talk about how going to Hawaii is always a mixture of excitement (yay beach! yay family!), ( Read more... )

So... I'm like... 33 years old now. The what?! I seriously don't care. So I'm 33... and...? This is just where I am. Hooray ( Read more... )

When I became a mom, I thought I'd finally be a part of the Mom Club. I would get my jacket, an endless supply of tissues, and weekly techniques on how to not lose your shit. Instead I got some kind of towel covered in stickiness, empty boxes of tissues, and spans of time where I didn't think anyone knew I existed. Reality checks are a bitch. But ( Read more... )

Commit dit-on... How do you say... I guess I've lost that. How to just... talk. I either talk and say something inadventently wrong, or think too hard about trying to say the right thing and lose my place ( Read more... )

It seems like life always wins around these parts. And by life, I mean, I have very little "me time ( Read more... )

Aurelia is 16 months now. She is huge, and full of energy, and out to kill herself, and totally funny, and nothing I could have expected at this age. I am finding life is a bit easier, to some extent. I mean, she'll entertain herself... but she might entertain herself by climbing the bookshelves. ::sigh:: She eats a lot. Her favorites are kiwi, ( Read more... )