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time to step it up
I woke up in a sort of frenzy at 4am last night after dreaming that my roommate and friend, Jonathan, had e-mailed me a warning to watch out for a rapist coming into people's homes who was putting white plastic bags over the victims' heads. WHY AM I DREAMING THIS ( Read more... ) -
dreams
I had some very telling and interesting dreams last night ( Read more... ) -
a letter that i won't send
It really bothers me that I woke up this morning and cried about the fact that you were such a horrible person to my mother, and sometimes even to my brother and me. It breaks my heart that you put so much anger on us. I only ever wanted you to be kind and to truly mean your thousands of apologies. I used to imagine that you and mom would be nice ( Read more... ) -
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I wish you were here so we could talk about life ( Read more... ) -
dreams
had a bunch of dreams last night. i remembered more when i woke up a half hour ago, but i'll write what i can remember now ( Read more... ) -
sometimes i wish i was a robot
not really. i think, in fact, that's the first time i ever wished i was a robot, and that wish only lasted about 2 seconds ( Read more... ) -
carbondale news
So it's been about 6 months since I moved to Carbondale and I'm happy to say that I've been involved in several worthy projects since starting a life here. I haven't had a regular job-- only my part-time online work-- since the end of December last year... which was okay for like a month, but I started to go stir crazy so I'm glad I found other ( Read more... ) -
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It's so awesome how music can be so emotionally affective... it can bring me to singing and smiling and dancing or complete relaxation or into a mosh kicking frenzy or quiet contemplation and tears. well, I'm listening to the Beatles right now so I feel pretty nice ( Read more... ) -
inside me
inside me
is a place i hate to be
i prefer to be away
smiling and laughing
all the day.
inside me
the thoughts are dark
i prefer to be away
playing at the park.
inside me
i am never good enough
i prefer to be away
and not deaing
with this stuff.
inside me
there is screaming
i prefer to be away
floating in the clouds
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day of birth
today I am 24 years old. I can mark this day as the first time I have ever felt depressed about getting old. Yay.