Yep yep. You heard right, kiddies. Melanie's got a new journal. Woop dee friggin' doo.

www.livejournal.com/users/melanieterese

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-Melanie

I just got home on Friday night from spending a week in the hospital. Now that I'm home, I almost want to go back to the hospital in some weird, fucked up way. I feel like no one here even noticed I was gone, or even cares. I feel so disconnected from everyone here...like I'm some sort of alien or something. No one seems to understand. I miss my ( Read more... )

El Festablo: i just pinched mikes fat ( Read more... )

I haven't updated in a long time, and I still really don't feel like it. I'm too lazy and my head is too much of a mess. But I do have one thing to say: Tina, Molly, and I are trying out for the talent show so you all better come and see us!!! Hell yeah!!! lol.

K!

Friggin' bye!!!

-Melanie

I've been so down lately. I don't know why. I wish I could pull myself out of this mess I've fallen into. There are so many things on my mind. So many things... It's all just so confusing. I don't know which decision to make. I wish someone could just tell me all the answers. I hate having to figure everything out on your own. God. I just don't ( Read more... )

I don't want to be in this body anymore. I don't want to be a slave to these thoughts anymore. I'm sick of the dead weight mind that I carry on my shoulders day in and day out. I can't do anything anymore. I can't be the person I want to be. I can't be the friend I want to be, and that just hurts me so much. But, how am I supposed to help others ( Read more... )

I'm scared. More scared than I have ever been in a long, long time. I don't want to be sent there. I just want to stay here by myself. I'm sick of being observed. Being treated like I'm a psychotic freak. I'm sick of being asked the same questions over and over again. Why do they pretend to care? They get paid by the hour, idiot ( Read more... )

It was about 9:15 on Christmas morning in a church in Bristol, where an elderly woman was crying because she lost her second daughter to cancer earlier this year. This would be the first Christmas she'd spend without her daughter. The daughter that her God stole away from her. And yet she stood there, in the house of God, on Jesus' birthday, ( Read more... )

Greg just came over and gave me my Christmas presents. It was really sweet. Almost too sweet ( Read more... )

I never thought this could be me
I guess you never do until it's happening to you
Like all the fun turns into shame
And all the "could have beens" rearrange
So little time, so many crimes
Guilt like a chain chokes my will away
Redemption never seemed so cruel
And all my Gods never seemed so weak

Wake up, engage
Now derailed and enraged
It used to ( Read more... )