God. I thought I was making the right decision. I guess not anymore. God, why is everything so confusing? Why can't things just be simple for once? Why the fuck is it that everything I fucking try ends up with me being the bad guy and turns into a mess? I don't know anymore. I just don't know ( Read more... )

I haven't been this happy in a long, long time. I just hope everything works out and nothing bad gets in the way. Things are a little akward right now, but I think they will get better. I'm excited! WEeeeEEeEeEeee!!!! K well I gotta go clean the house cuz Mama said so. Bye!

-Melanie

Today was possibly the worst day of my life. I can't even describe how low I felt. It was just such a horrible feeling. There was no point in getting up this morning. I just couldn't make myself do it. So I just layed in bed and wished I was dead ( Read more... )

Today was just so disgustingly drawn out. Too much crying and feeling sorry for myself on my part. Guess I'm just a sissy. Enough of that ( Read more... )

Well, I'm not mad at Matt anymore, and he's not "the world's biggest asshole". He's just....I don't know. I don't think I quite understand his way of thinking anymore, and that makes me sad ( Read more... )

SOOoOOOOOOOoOOOoOoooOOO, I've been thinking. About relationships. Boyfriends. Girlfriends. The whole dating idea. What's the point of dating someone? I mean, in all honesty. Think about it. You know at one point there is eventually going to be a breakup, no matter how much the other person tells you they will never leave you. You just KNOW it's ( Read more... )

Losses, losers and more ( Read more... )

I hate Chris Barry and Matt Rybak. They are the world's biggest assholes. Congrats to them. They both deserve fucking gold medals ( Read more... )

I don't know how much more heart break I can take.... :(

Matt makes me hate him more and more every day without me even having to talk to him. He's such a fucking asshole now. All he does is talk about drugs and shit like that. I wouldn't be surprised either if he is fucking around with girls at his college. He makes me fucking sick. The fact that he changed so suddenly makes me see how fake of a person ( Read more... )