I am officially going to San Francisco at the end of the month.
Only for 3 days but better than nothing.
I'm excited.
I bought my plane tickets.
Such an adult feeling buying my first planes tickets myself.

Foody's party is gonna be awesome!
Wish my luck and fun on my trip!

I am now twenty-one!
It's nice to know I can drink anytime I want.
I haven't been to any bars or clubs.
I'm not going to Vegas for a while..
but the thought of possibility is exciting.

My birthday was great!
My friends setup a get together at Rueben's house.
I had a great time with my favorite people.

I told the great guy who was incredibly sweet that I wasn't so into, the truth. He said he understood also said "don't worry. it's not a big deal". But then he said it didn't work that way to be friends with him still ( Read more... )

I try so hard to believe your lies,
but you don't make them very convincing.

I had to the worst drinking experience in my life ( Read more... )

My mother is fucken STUPIDLast night Lauren and Rueben came by. I ask her to sew Rueben's sweater. She then goes on some bull shit tangent that she doesn't want to bring friends over cause she doesn't have time to watch them. She like to think that all my friends who come over are going to steal from us. I then argue with her that she's fucken ( Read more... )

"never allow someone to become your priority while you to become their option"

I did something good for myself.
New 'self-worth program' here I come!

I don't like being woken up,
asked to go places,
then said "naw it's cool" to.

For the sake of me, I stayed.
I'm proud of me.

[dirty secret: I just wanted to go see him.]

"the truth about life is that everyone is going to hurt you, you just have to decide who's worth the pain."I miss you ( Read more... )

hey boy...i'm over it ( Read more... )

i hate life.
it fucken sucks to be me.
just when i have something to be excited about...
i'm totally shot down.
i am dragged back down to reality that,
"hey i'm vivian... i get no breaks."

i fucken hate people.
i hate arguements.
i hate sprint.
i hate boys.
i hate that i'm so angry.