Sorry I haven't kept this thing up to date. I've been busy with Marquis, school, family issues, and just everything. Life has been pretty crazy, and I have a feeling the roller coaster isn't slowing down anytime soon ( Read more... )

I'm tired of always being sick. I want a normal stomach. not one that I can't control or one that likes to eat away at me.

and my mom attempted to OD.

and its all my fault.

my mom wants to kill herself. and its all my fault.

I love life but at the same time i hate it and it has not point. at. all.

Friday that thirteenth. We became OFFICIAL. and i LOVE IT. and I LOOOOVE him. things couldn't be anymore amazing ( Read more... )

I am a horrible, low person. Bryan and everyone else is right ( Read more... )

First Time Around: "I hate you" "you're cheating on me!" Never any time for each other. Could care less. Treated each other like crap. both were miserable. barely even wanted to hung.

Second Time Around: competative. all about the money. He liked her, (oh how I was wrong!) but i liked someone else too... so Ithought. Never could agree. Never paid ( Read more... )

I. Hate. TOM.

if you're a girl and you're smart, you'll be able to figure out what that stands for.

Tom is a jerk who visits 12 times a year, which is 12 times too many... and he makes my tummy hurt. and he makes me throw up. and I hate him. He should die. Rawr.

I'm Angry and all Emo right now. its all Tom's fault. What a butt.

( kind of random & gross, but... )

He's so amazing. This night couldn't have been more perfect. I wish two weeks would go by really fast... I can't stand not having him any longer. He's just to perfect.

I'm mad it took me this long to realize it.

I'm loosing control of everything and I don't want too. I want something to control myself. But there's only one thing I can completely control to the fullest. And I can't. because I can't handle it, it always ends up being a problem.

I'm not normally a control freak. But I just feel so... useless?

"Girls are like apples on trees. The best ones are at the top of the tree. The boys dont want to reach for the good ones because they are afraid of falling and getting hurt. Instead, they just get the rotten apples from the ground that aren't as good, but easy. So the apples at the top think something is wrong with them, when in reality, they're ( Read more... )

It feels like you're dangling me from a thin piece of string, just watching and waiting to see how long I can hold on. And then, when you see me almost let go, you come back and try to pull me back up. Once you've got me dangling again, you go back to watching and waiting and making me hold on. It's a never ending process ( Read more... )