This is old and I need something new. I know, third one I've made. but third time's a charm. (=

If you want my new journal, let me know. If I like you, I'll give it to you.

His grandfather is dying and I'm a bad girlfriend. I can't fix it and I don't know what to say. its out of my hands and theres nothing for me to even attempt to grasp. He's on his own. and i don't know what to say. I didn't get to see him today, so we've been texting. and I don't know what to say ( Read more... )

So on Monday, January 15 I have a really important doctor's appointment. Hopefully, it will be the last test I have to take to figure out what's wrong ( Read more... )

I'm old enough to know the meaning of christmas. I understand it and I accept it ( Read more... )

I'm going to visit Sasha today in the hospital. I'm nervous. I'm really worried about her ( Read more... )

I went for a CT Scan today to figure out WTF is up with my stomach and side.. Everyone said the worst part would be drinking that stuff that makes your insides glow. Honestly, that was the EASIEST part. It didn't taste that bad, I got it down quick. The worst part, for me, was the IV. UGH. its not so much getting pricked, because I don't care when ( Read more... )

I'm usually known as the opptimistic one. But what if I'm not? What if deep down, I think life is just one huge cruel thing, that beats you to your lowest point, gives you a spot of hope, then beats you down again? What if in reality, I just don't care? What if I just hate everything and I don't understand any of what I think ( Read more... )

( Pretty accurate, I think... )

I've decided to give up on school... along with everything else. I'll never do well anymore, I'll never be good enough. My teachers already have a mind frameset that I suck, why even bother? So far, my junior year has been nothing but a failure. I've done nothing but screw up this year... not just school. I seem to screw up everything ( Read more... )

So, I'm 17 today ( Read more... )