These last few days have been crazy, rushing back and forth, getting things packed. I finally got my passport and we're leaving tomorrow at 3 a.m. Nothing is done, no one is packed, clothes still have to be washed. There is so much things to do, that I am wondering why am I hear writting? Anyways, I'll miss everyone and I'll be back in about a ( Read more... )

Today at 5 a.m. my dad received a call from Vietnam. My grandma passed away. I don' think I can go to the funeral. I don't have my passport, I got it renewed but it is going to take 10 more weeks. I cried a little this morning. I really miss her and my grandfather. I couldn't make it his funeral either. I just wish I could go see one of them. It ( Read more... )

It is about 5:24 a.m. and I have not slept for 24 hours. I drank too much coffee and soda. I feel like I am going to die. Today or should I say yesterday I pertisapated in the Rely for Life for Cancer. I stayed up all night. Things were crazy, it was freezing out side and there was nothing to do at times. Mostly everyone pulled an all nighter so ( Read more... )

I really don't know what to do anymore...I'm starting to feel as if I am losing myself. I don't feel like I know or understand myself any longer. I know people change and I know I have changed drastically over the years. However, right now I am lost. I'm confused...I feel as if apart of me is missing or I misplaced it somewhere and can figure out ( Read more... )

I absolutely love the carnival. ( Read more... )

You say that I am admirable,
But am I really good enough?
Am I even worth your time?
Am I really anything at all?

Yes, you answer me. 
Your words didn't waver,
Your expression strong,
Gives me reassurance.

Only seconds later,
I feel this emptiness,
I see all my faults,
All my weakness.

I can only pick at my fault,
I never see what you see in me.
You say I am ( Read more... )

What to do, what to do??? This weekend was odd, that all I can really think to describe it. I think my emotions are going crazy. I feel sad one second, then hyper or angry and anything in between. Ahhh..... what to do? I don't know how I should feel or react to things....... On top of this I feel so lonely..... I want someone to spend time with ( Read more... )

Please excuse my emo moment/ ranting ( Read more... )

What is there left to love ( Read more... )

What is there left to love ( Read more... )