He looked at me like I looked impatient ( Read more... )

my birthday was nice thank you.
thanks megan for visiting.
and roommates.

also;

i feel like breaking vodka bottles right now.

tomorrow is my nineteenth birthday. i have already spent part of today crying over the fact that i don't want to get older. but farewell to even numbered curses, at least for a while. this is supposed to be the year where i figure my shit out. we'll see ( Read more... )

also; you are ridiculous. cut it out ( Read more... )

i don't have a car anymore. i probably have already spent a good four hours crying over the loss and tomorrow i am going to go and take every goddamn bmw emblem i can to remind myself of the time that "i drove an old beamer, isn't that neat?" (i'm in trouble.) No. Today i recieved a postcard from Thailand but that only gave me the pleasure of a ( Read more... )

i'm still waiting for the tow truck. it should have been here a while ago and its making me very anxious. anxiety is key these days. i really wish i could just go back to the house that is not my parent's house and lie on the floor of the bedroom that is all my very own and carefully watch the ceiling fan. or try and read the books i have been ( Read more... )

on friday we probably had about 150 people at our house, collectively.

but today my car broke down and i don't know if i can get it fixed, so that is not so good.

Being in this house is like one constant anxiety attack. Everything is so stressful, everything is so complicated. But i don't want to go home. I can't go skiing tomorrow because i don't have any money. damnit. i'm excited to see the life aquatic tonight. i'm really really stressed about life right now. kay.

there are 16 things i cannot tell you ( Read more... )

our party went okay on thursday. the dinner with our neighbors and some friends made my head hurt it was so nice. i didn't like the party; though i should have since everyone sung to me. apparently, i am a weird, ugly girl. but thats okay i generally like it that way. i'm better at being politely drunk. not that i am necessarily polite. i stopped ( Read more... )