I cannot think, agitation makes my blood run cold and, and my skin feels stiff. I need out. I feel like I could expolde. Stress. I think I am stressed. Sometimes I wonder why I push myself so hard, sometimes I wonder if I really want this.

So the pattern emerges ( Read more... )

I'd love so much to stay the night, and cuddle in your cocoon. Its really lonely sometimes, rising above and growing stronger, and trying to evolve.

I wonder sometimes, how anyone could ever accept me for who I am when I cannot be myself. Be Myself. Like that is a simple thing. It is like fighting a knee jerk reaction. My personality is like a series of knee jerk reactions, I constantly and reflexively try to fix myself. As other people react and respond to me, I react and respond by changing ( Read more... )

What I want to do and what I need to do are at odds again. I have been studying all weekend, and I feel like a grade-a loser. I could have gone on a decent date last night and had a great time. I could have gone bowling with Sarah. I missed two really good meetings (or so I was told) and all of my friends feel neglected. And I still I have more ( Read more... )

08:35 AM CDT on Monday, June 27, 2005 ( Read more... )

She carried her neatly folded memories ( Read more... )

I never write when I am like this ( Read more... )

I am anxious ( Read more... )

Less than a month before I leave for Waco. I am getting really nervous and really excited. I will miss houston, my grandma, and my friends. Life has been getting better and better though, and I am excited for all that is to come.