It is interesting....how I can love both of my parents so deeply - yet feel such hate for them at the same time. It makes me feel quite conflicted most of the time. I feel horrible using the word hate, even though it is only parts of them that I hate. The parts I hope never to inherit.

I hate all of the rain. It always leaves me moody.

"Whisper ( Read more... )

I want to kill my sinuses. My front one keeps on filling up with blood and once it gathers enough, it comes down the back of my throat. Disgusting! This is the third or fourth time this has happened since I had the cortisone shots in my nose. The doctor said there was a blockage in my sinus due to allergies, but I don't think he was aware it ( Read more... )

Well, my mind is currently in a jumble. I am not happy at work. It used to be that I didn't mind working at the office at all, but with certain changes and responsibility shifts, I dread going now. I think the emotions that I carry around all day at work have really started to wear on me and carry over into my personal life. I just feel grouchy ( Read more... )

"Over the sea and far away
She's waiting like an iceberg
Waiting to change
But she's cold inside
She wants to be like the water

All the muscles tighten in her face
Buries her soul in one embrace
They're one and the same
Just like water"

One of my favorite of his songs...

Damien at his best!

"As soon as my eyes shut the slide show begins ( Read more... )

Back when I was in the third grade and my parents were going through their divorce I was scared most of the time. This was the year I saw "the blue man" for those of you who know that story :P I was in the basement watching tv and I got up, walked to the tv, and turned it off. I noticed something next to me. When I looked I saw that it was a boy ( Read more... )

So NYC was really awesome in many ways. I got to run around town in style - expensive restaurants, posh bars, the spa, and of course riding in town cars rather than taxis some of the time. I drank wine all day and had a constant buzz, which is totally unlike me. So to sum it up - it was very FUN but at the same time it felt like someone else's ( Read more... )