I'm further along in my degree than I thought I was. Would I like to abandon ship earlier than anticipated? All my dreams are restless (I walk through fairytales). I wake up around five almost every morning, wide-eyed and over-warm ( Read more... )

Lately I spent all my time alternating between anger and despair, over family, over people I have known, over stupid men in malls and at cafes near the Kimbell. It was like all the light went out of my world. I was tired all the time and found myself phrasing things in old ways. The worse I felt the more I pulled into myself, the less able I ( Read more... )

It is about to storm here. Austin must wait until during the week; I have some time off and I will get away then and try to remember what matters. A pilgrimage of sorts. I always feel remorseful about my writing: that I write too much, that I couch things that are personal in vague terms that may appear to mean one thing when the mean something ( Read more... )

Yo no quiero una familia. No ahora, no jamás.  Yo no quiero a un ( Read more... )

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Two acts too many. Make it stop! At least give me an intermission so I can run screaming from the theatre. Metaphor == officially overdone.

(I've got some nerve, but energy's scarce and I gotta keep breathing, you know?)

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I am Officially going back on the schedule at B&N as a part time bookseller.

After next week, my life will Officially be Hell.

I had to take a moment to be thankful to all the people who have stuck with me through the years. I do not think I'm the easiest person to keep contact with. From the financial trouble to the family problems, to the funerals... I am blessed to have my friends in my life. I do a lot and I reach high, but none of it would be worth it without the ( Read more... )

"Yes," admits Tamina. "I want terribly to go away. But where?"
"Some place where things are light as the breeze. Where things have lost their weight. Where there's no remorse."
"Yes," says Tamina dreamily. "Where things weigh nothing at all."

I worry about my mother. She's begun talking again about leaving, but she does not understand that ( Read more... )

There's got to be a better way than this. Damn. At least I'm improving with this whole "talking" thing. I do know what I want, really. Sometimes. Well, at least I know what I don't want. Blech ( Read more... )