my life is changing so fast and is basically slipping out from under me. i feel like at my age i should have more control over what i do and where i stand in my life then i do at this point. i am frustrated, sad, lonely, pissed...i just want to be happy. right now i am in north carolina where i have to live the rest of summer because my mom and my ( Read more... )

hm. i'm home now. i wish i was still in north carolina. nothing is going rite. i hate this shit. today sucks really bad. its nasty out and i feel like no one cares!! woot. for not caring. last night at work was nice i love the people i work with. i just hate bitchy customers who throw their change on the counter cause they think that being a bitch ( Read more... )

lala its been a couple days. haha. a couple weird and eventful days. which I'm probably not going to go into detail sorry? but today i went white water rafting it was fucking awesome. the raft flipped in the currents once but it was cool. even though we all almost drown. hahah. we had to wear these wrist band things and i have a tan mark from it. ( Read more... )

i feel like crap today. i feel empty, sad and sick. why can't everyday be at least a little bit better for me? this is really getting old. i know i sound dumb but i don't know i just yeah. i want my boyfriend. it sucks that he would rather be alone. i'm feeling a little crazy today. well tonight, actually this morning. i could really use a ( Read more... )

today just isn't my day. nothing seems to go right anymore. and like i said i would I'm already tweaking about no being able to see Ethan. god i love him. but anyways. today sucked. i woke up and things were good. i was feeling good. but some how the day slowly started to turn around and got horrible. like i was taking a shower and somehow I'm ( Read more... )

hi there. its been awhile. things have changed a great deal since the last time i updated this lovely thing. its July now as you can see and its been a couple months. me and Ethan are still going strong :] 5 months on the 9th. i love him so much. things are really great right now. the last 2 weeks have been especially incredible. he makes me so ( Read more... )

So one day this hammmer decided to nail ( Read more... )

bleh. its friday and i'm in english. i just finished this stupid Shakespeare thing. gayyy. but lalala. tonight should be fun even though its completely ugly outside. i hate this weather so much its april not like november with all the rain and snow and cold temperatures. its really lame. but oh well. :/ i suppose. erm. the last couple of days have ( Read more... )

wow i havent updated this in forever! there is so much to say but i never feel like it. i'm barely ever on the computer anymore. and i'm pretty content with my life i guess. i have an amazing boyfriend who i like so damn much. :] today was a half day at school for "spring break" ha. its freaking snowing? its bullshit. i guess the weather isnt aware ( Read more... )

bleh its friday night and i'm at home, how lame. haha. today was a half day and a pretty interesting one at that, and no i do not mean good interesting. but more about that later. so since last time i updated i've had a pretty gay week. monday was rather chill nothing really big happened, that i can remember at least. then tuesday was alright, ( Read more... )