well, things are crazy and I'm sorry I haven't been around ( Read more... )

Ya know.  I'm just so sick of fake people.  I'm sick of fake friends.  I'm sick of people pitying me or whatever it is they do.  You know what?  Pity doesn't do anything.  Moreover, I'm sick of trying to tell ppl things and they don't care.  If you don't care, don't talk to me... Most of you only talk to me spontaniously anyway and really forget me ( Read more... )

So, I don't really know what to say without sounding like a depressed dork who really needs a life... not involving massive amounts of school and stress.

My birthday was Sunday (thank you to all who wished me happy bday).  It was an alright day.  I was really sick because I had breakfast food and we all know how that leaves me in the bathroom for ( Read more... )

So, I've decided that I absolutely loath life.  I hate everything about it right now.  I hate the fact Grandpa's dead.  I hate that I have to write this letter to him (well, a combined letter from all 4 grandkids).  I hate that at least Jon has to read it (which means I will bc I'll be DAMNED if I let Jon do something just because he's a stupid boy ( Read more... )

Grandpa's dieing.  There's no way around it.  He has a matter of days.  The cancer is actually attacking his nerves right now so eventually he'll just stop breathing.

I guess Im just in shock.

Nothing more to say on the matter right now except I have a paper due in an hour and no wya to know how to concentrate.

I just wish for ONCE that things would be easy for me.  I wish that things wouldn't be such a struggle and a constant cause of depression.  I love him more than anything in the whole world and all I want is to see him, to be with him, to feel him, to kiss him, to hold him, to have him hold me, to have him look into my eyes and tell me how much he ( Read more... )

Honestly I think I haven't written in here because I haven't been sure what's going on with what.

Grandpa's still really sick.   Somedays are better than others, but it's still rather depressing to think about.

Steve's in NC which I'm so thrilled for him, but I miss him every day.  He's doing so well and sometimes I just don't think I'm doing as well ( Read more... )

Directions:
1. Put your iTunes, Windows Media Player, etc. on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS.

IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY" YOU SAY?
Walk Away

HOW WOULD YOU DESCRIBE YOURSELF?
Undone

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
What About Now?

HOW DO YOU FEEL ( Read more... )

So, here I am, in this beautiful country with a lot of fun things (and a lot of school work), yet I can't seem to feel right about being here.

Let's go back a bit - Grammy was really sick, and she passed away yesterday (4th of July).  I feel really sad about it, and my housemates are sweet, trying to help me out all they can, but it just doesn't ( Read more... )

So Ireland's pretty nice.  I really enjoy it here and the people I came with are fun :).  I had my first official drink in Ireland (or 3... or 4...).  Hey, free drinks, who can pass that up??  ;)  I drank the cider beer and I must say it was quite good - almost too good! haha.

I had one of my classes yesterday - the traditional music and dance - ( Read more... )