I seriously give up.
I'm so incredibly drained.
I pour all of my time, energy, emotions and thoughts into something
and never get anything back.
I haven't done anything to deserve being treated like I don't exist or matter to you.

of being the last priority.
feeling unwanted and unwelcome
and trying so fucking hard

happy new relationship to me!
here courtney, you can have this awesome boyfriend.
the one that makes you think "man, everyone was right when they said i deserve better."
but in a week he's gonna leave for camp and you can't see him for almost a month.
and he won't be there on your birthday or before you leave for vegas.
thanks life!

every single dream i've had for the past few weeks ( Read more... )

i have so many thoughts floating around in my head right now ( Read more... )

i've gone from total pain and torture, can't go a minute without thinking about him ( Read more... )

as much as i love going to shows ( Read more... )

getting out of that house was exactly the medicine i needed ( Read more... )

done living my life for other people ( Read more... )

i always know when i've done something wrong ( Read more... )