you leave but no one notices you're gone.
you are trying to fit in the gaps of someone else's life.
you have no idea why you did any of it.

a lot has changed since i last used this thing. i was still in beauty school. i still lived in michigan... and was nowhere near as happy as i thought i would be. it is kind of lonely sometimes... but i'm sure that will change soon ( Read more... )

going to work right after i puke... sometimes i swear i hate my job!!

on the other hand i get to got o chicago tomorrow.... YAY!!

i love my boyfriend.. that's all i have to say

for once in my life i would like to find a drama free social setting.... one where people know how to have more than one friend without alienating everyone else... where people follow through with their promises... one where people don't try to out do one another's misfortunes. it is so pathetic i want to scream!!!! i just have to stick to those ( Read more... )

i am offically going to chicago on the 15th of september.... we booked the hotel last night!! YAY!!

that is all for now.

so i was just told that i am a disappointment... not my my parents or friends... but by my little sister. the one i am taking a week off of school so i can hang out with then help move into her dorm. she said she never expects anythign i plan to ever happen so why should i try anymore? i guess i'll just stick to my friends, they seem to have a ( Read more... )

i am now realizing how meaningless most things in life really are... i am also realizing how importan those few meaningfull things really are.

who buys a coke machine??? honestly???

oh yeah... my boyfriend does.

so life has been amazing lately.... i half don't think it is real. i am happy, i've lost a lot of my old insecurities. i don't know what to do with myself... i guess i'll just go read and enjoy life.... wierd.