This is what I'm thankful for:

- Ben.  I love you.
- My small, dysfunctional, loving family. I can't believe my parents still put up with me.
- Malia, Capone, and Pedro. They make my day much more cheerful.
- The few friends I have back home. 
- My job. It isn't that great, but it's paying my bills.
- Elvis Presley.

This is what I'm NOT thankful for:

- Bad ( Read more... )

its been 7 weeks since ive updated this bad boy ( Read more... )

i finally think that my nightmare has stopped haunting me.

hes finally out of my life for good.

im so glad i can sleep now.

other than the waking up ridiculously early to clean and pack, and clean more and more.

i seriously dont ever want to clean again.

ugh ( Read more... )

lately things have been fantastic. i keep having to pinch myself to make sure that being with ben isn't just a dream anymore. it took so long to finally have him and now i am not letting him go. i've never been so happy before, and i think after 19 years i owe it to myself, and i owe him every bit of love and affection i have in me to keep him ( Read more... )

memories of my life here are starting to get to me. knowing i will be leaving the only place i know is such a heavy weight on my heart. i love this place. from the first day we got here, we moved into a condo until we got our house, the house i grew up in. from 4 to 16. i remember playing in the pond in the backyard our first day there. catching  ( Read more... )

i am a better person than some people care to think of me. ive lived a life full of struggle, starting from the beginning, so for people to sit there and try to place blame on me for things i have gone through. yes, i was raped. RAPED. look up the definition of that. ITS NOT RAINBOWS AND FLOWERS. its hurt and pain, and a scar that will never go ( Read more... )

stress has been getting the best of me lately ( Read more... )

i have had the worst sleeping habits lately, its like up every hour, and then i fall asleep for a solid three hours, and get up at noon. what the hell? its probably cuz i was on those pain pills and the damn anesthesia wearing out of my system ( Read more... )

so ben took me camping yesterday and it was awesome ( Read more... )