my only validation and solace through this is through other people. I think that logic is inherently fucked ( Read more... )

havent posted in a while. been in a funk lately. feel it slightly lifting here and there. it was a depressing holiday. the homesickness just kind of swallows me whole sometimes. i am kind of tired of feeling sad everyday. but i feel like im idealizing home in a way. associating it with a sense of comfort that i dont feel here yet. there was a ( Read more... )

sitting in an empty room. well mostly empty. havent been in this spot in a while. now i am running away to texas with the cutest boy in the whole wide world..woo adventure.we are stopping in new orleans on the way to dallas, which should be awesome. im excited and sad a little. i think now that my room is emptying out i am more excited!

wooo

there is something that i am looking for every day, peace. i am never happy about waking up and it generally makes me grumpy for a bit. i am most sensitive in the morning and i am quickly affected by loneliness and the stress of living a ever ebbing life of trying. i am looking for passion and a reason to believe every day. but by the end of the ( Read more... )

you make me want to be a better person. i could sit next to you forever in a room full of people and have fun just sitting with you.you make me light up when you smile at me and you make my insides dance around. i have been worried about running away with you. i am worried i will be lonely. then today, i figured that i should not live life in fear ( Read more... )

i do not know what i am looking for tonight. im looking toward some form of anything that will ease my shaky mind. i am not sure how to wrap my head around the heck i am supposed to be doing right now.lkbncv,n ( Read more... )

does anything last forever? can there be just one thing that does not change? at least something. one thing that is constant. now that I write this this seems impossible. it is weird to realize that your idols are human. it is weird when you start taking care of your parents. I miss being a child and not noticing peoples faults. cant anyone just ( Read more... )

Lately, I have been in complete awe of the human beings that surround me. Mostly, I have been continually reminded of fucking awful humans can be sometimes. I am just as guilty of being terrible as the next person, but I generally make an attempt to think of others and their feelings, efforts before I act ( Read more... )

i am a left over artist.

good things about today:
1. heard three amazing songs in a row. the joker,don't stop believing and let's get it on.
2.reconnected with a missed friend.
3. ate delicious pizza for the second night in a row.

3 good things about today.

1. today i got a huge weight and tension lifted from my soul and I will rest soundly.
2. My friends never fail to amaze me with their humor and their love for me.
3. I drank beer from mason jars.